苦中作乐

Today during therapy, there was this client who mentioned:

"You see him happy but there is pain."

This is often so true where people may seem happy but yet actually they are not. All 苦中作乐......

But this group of clients that I see..... sometimes, when you feel down... they seemed to cheer me up with their 苦中作乐.... they will make all sort of noise and sound when the others are in pain.... but that is to reduce the tension/pain the others are feeling.... ...

I guess there are different types of pain - physical, emotional, etc....

But I guess the most painful is emotional pain ba.... physical pain can be treated with medicine physically and internally..... emotional pain are the hardest to heal.....

But I see that emotional pain in people around me...... my clients and friends, including myself sometimes.... but there is always so much that I can do....

I like ......

Sour Cream Pringles ^_^

Because.... no because.....no reasons.... I just like.....

and sometimes you can never get tired of it....

And will stop looking for better ones..... cause.... there will always be better ones around.... so no point looking..... =P

I still like Sour Cream Pringles ^_^

Everybody's here

I had a dream the other night inside my head
One of me that it seems I’ve always had…
In the middle of nowhere dark and cold
I find myself all alone.
And everytime it seems like it never ends
I gotta find my way back to get me out of there…


I had a dream the other night inside my head
The same old dream, but then instead
Of being alone in the middle of who knows where
I saw another man standing there….
So I went up to his face and I turned and said
How can I be the only one inside this place?


Cos, you don’t know that everybody’s here
Same old story time and time again
You just never turn to look behind (you)”


So I turned a little round and what (did) I see?
A line of people waiting around like me
“you’re not alone” is what I mean…
“…or why would the line stretch to the sea?”
All of us adrift in an endless space
I’m not the only one inside this place


He said, “You on your own is what you see here
And it’s hard to see it any other way
Now it’s time to open up your eyes.
Cos, you don’t know that everybody’s here
Same old story time and time again
You just never turned to look behind.”


He said, “You on your own is what you see here
And it’s hard to see it any other way
Now it’s time to open up your eyes.
Cos, you don’t know that everybody’s here
Same old story time and time again
You just never turned to look behind.”


I’m not alone, it’s not just me here
It’s not (that) hard to reach out to find your way
Now it’s time to open up your eyes.

4 people u will meet in ur life

I was reading Lenia's Blog and came across the same thing SY shared with me before.
Thus decided to share this with everyone ....... Copy and paste from Lenia's Blog.

Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.

First person is yourself,
Second person is the one you love most,
Third person is the one who love you most,
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, you will usually first meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels.
Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved,
you will then know what it is you need most.
Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most doesn't love you.
The one who love you most is never the one you love most.
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most.
He or she is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

Which person are you in other people's life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.
But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore.
When he loves you, he can't pretend that he doesn?t.
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.
When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you.

You must ask yourself if you still love him,
If you also don't love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride.
If you still love him, you should wish him happiness,and hope that he will be with the one he loves most,not stop him from it.
If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves,
it shows you already don't love him,
And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive.
If you like the moon, you can?t just take it down and put it in your basin,
But the moonlight still shines upon you.
In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in you life.

If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is.
Love him for his good points, and the bad.
You can't wish for him to become like what you will like him to be just because you love him.
If he can't change to become what you like him to be,you don't love him anymore.

When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him.
You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through thetoughest problems without asking for promises or listing criterias.
In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.

Being away from each other is a type of test.
If the relationship isn't strong, then you can onlyadmit defeat.
Real love will never become hate.

When two people are in love,they love to ask each other
to swear, to make promises.
Why do they ask each other to swear and promise?
Because they don't trust each other, they don't trusttheir lover.
These swear and promises are useless; Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love foryou will never change!

We all know that the sky will never fall; the oceanwill never dry,
Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?
Be careful when making promises; don't make promisesthat you cannot keep.
Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually.

In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;
The one saying, doesn't believe; the one listening,also doesn't believe.


In the world so big, which person have you found?

And who has found you?

Euro 2008

Though I am not a hard-core soccer fan, I still catch some soccer matches here and there, as I have friends and clients who are into soccer..... thus it can be used as a topic to talk about.....

Thus far, Euro 2008 is left with 1 Quarter Final and 2 Semi-Finals.....


Quarter Final - 23rd June, 2.45am

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Spain vs Italy. I guess this might be a tough fight between this 2 teams. For more info, click here.


Semi Final 1- 26th June, 2.45pm

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Germany vs Turkey. For more info, click here.

Semi Final 2- 27th June, 2.45pm

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(edited on 23rd June, 7am. Semi-Final Spain vs Italy: 4-2 on Penalties)

For more info, go to Euro 2008 Official Website.

Old Songs

All of a sudden went to listen to some old songs as I heard this phrase “坚持到底" on TV just now....

Thus, wish to share this song with my readers.... whatever you do, do not give up.

坚持到底.... tough time don't last, tough men do..... so NEVER EVER EVER GIVE UP!

Few incidents in my life I'm glad that I never give up and thus I am what I am today......

Incident #1
I failed my JC 1 in 2001. I was told to go to ARTS STREAM. And of course to GIVE UP NPCC. MY civics tutor of course has the best intention in mind but she failed to understand that that time, NPCC was my life. So what decision did I take?

Haha.... I NOT ONLY did I stay in SCIENCE STREAM, I took up a more SIONG CCA/ECA in addition to my NPCC and that is COLLEGE DRAGONBOATING. lolx.... I don't remember how I really brave through that 2 more years in JC. But I just know that I want to prove peopl wrong that I can make it. Perhaps it was due to my STUBBORNESS and my desire to win attutide (which may not be very obvious to some ppl).
HAha.... I did quite well in my repeated JC1... I think I got AEE in Sem 1... as compared to OFF the year before..... and sem 2 I think I got CDE. As i was typing this, I remembered I can still access my JC portal.... so here is my results..... not fantastic.... but who cares? lolx....

Haha... finally during the A Level, I scored CDD, which I was pretty upset over it for a while. But that never get me down for long. I tried all my means to send in all my relevant documents to courses that I wanted in University. In the end, I didn't really got into what I wanted. But was still offered a place in NTU Engineering. At the same time, I was offered Dip in Occupational Therapy. Took a while to decide what I want to do and told myself not to regret the decision whatever may come. And there I was..... an Occupational Therapy Student. But things wasn't that smooth sailing after all.......


Incident #2
I was in dilemma whether I want to be an OT when I graduated or to join SPF after my degree conversion. And in addition, I have to handle the financial issues for my studies. That time my mom's CPF wasn't enough to pay for my education. Thus, I took up bank loan from DBS. But that only meant 75% of the fees and I have to fork out the additional 25%. As a student with only $300/mth which includes my transports, lecture notes, food expenses and miscellances. How am I suppose to pay? And being someone with no biology and no strong pure sciences background, it makes studying difficult. I was called into my CT's room to talk to me. Thank god Rayyan introduced me to Quatum Dynamics, which is known as Synergy Dynamic now. Though the pay wasn't that fantastic and often late (hahaha....), it helps me brave through the storm. Just that all of the pay was always used to pay my school fees. I was also known to be sometimes-part timers to them.... haha.... as I can't commit on a regular basis... only when I have no attachments. Oh.... I was also a tuition teacher during the 1st year too.

Things got slight better as the years go by..... and managed to brave through all my attachments with quite fairly good results. =)


Well, I am not blogging this to tell you how much I have gone through and you should empathise with me for going through these.... What I want to share is, have faith and confidence in yourself in whatever you decided to do. Don't give up on what you want to achieve.

坚持到底 okay? =)

坚持到底- 阿杜

Addictive

These are my addictives at the moment:

• SY

SY is like a drug.....I called it THE ICE. .... lolx.... Well.... it is also like the Pringles..... Once you start you can't stop......

• Persimmon, also know as Sharon Fruit

This fruit is super sweet..... As you know I have sweet tooth. I am super in LOVE with this fruit! Have been eating at least 1 everyday. This is also good for health. It was said to reduce heart diseases and prevent heart attack. Anyone wants? =P

• Facebook

How can I not be addicted to this network site. I am a "TECHNO" and "GADGET" Frek according to personality tests..... haha....

Blogging

How can I not blog about my thoughts and feelings? As well as what is happening to me and the world? Who knows? I might get early dementia and forget everyone that I know.....

But most importantly, I can look back and reflect on myself. To ensure that I wouldn't make the same mistakes over and over again. This helps me to look back but move forward..... =)

Shape Run 2008

My Shape Run is just

away.......

And I have only ran like twice.... the recent one on Thursday was not very good as I stopped for the first time before I even completed 1 round of bedok reservoir, which is 4.3km.

I had a warm-up jog from my house to bedok reservoir, which took me about 11 mins, including stops at traffic lights, etc. But even before I reached, I already have stitches. I still continue to run jog and apparently it got slightly better.

Just when I was jogging past my 2km, I started to feel pain on the medial side of my ankle. I guess must be due to the impact as well as my slight knock knees. I forced myself to jog till 2.5km before I decided to stop and walk. The timing was horrible. The pain was terrible too.... but got better during the walk. Then I decided to start to jog again after 3.0km. Thus for this 4.3km jog-run, it took me 35:53 minutes.

Maybe I will go for another run tomorrow if I can wake up. I shall have a regular run of twice weekly for the next 3 weeks and 1 run on the week before 20 July 2008. And that means I only have 7 more runs to go. Too bad I don't know how to swim. If not, I will go and swim to improve my endurance which is really bad.... lolx... I guess my last Great Eastern Run 2007, I managed to complete through determination and not so much on my endurance.

That time my timing was 1 hr 19 min. This time round, I hope to achieve 1 hr. And that means, I have to run 15 mins for 2.5km. It seems difficult to acheive that. But well, I shall see how in the next 2 weeks. If not, I guess I will stick to 1 hr 15mins. =)

Wish me luck! I will be back to update in 2 weeks time on my running.

Any supporter/s on that day? *bleh*

Anyway, it will be on 20th July 2008, 7.30am @ Padang.....

Uncertainty and Change

Uncertainty and change.

According to dictionary.com, the definitions are as follows:

Uncertainty. The condition of being unsure about someone or something.

Change. To make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone.

So how does change lead to uncertainty?

Let me use an example to illistrate this. I am going to change department next month, which is the following week. The clients that I am seeing now, some of them are asking about the next person taking over me. Most of my clients that I have, some of them I have seen them as long as a year, while others maybe a few months. Maybe, it is because I have already build the rapport with the clients and they are so comfortable with me. They are unsure whether the new person knows what to do with them, whether he knows about their problems. Thus, some of them were asking if they can choose not to change therapist.

Saw those italic words?

Change, comfortable, unsure and not to change.

All these we can use to explain change and uncertainty.

Sometimes, when human beings are so comfortable in our comfort zone, we resist change. We dislike being topple off our balance. Because we are so used to doing things the way we do, changes can make us unsure of ourselves. And all these will lead us to uncertainty.

But then again, we have to admit that change is constant. Change is happening every minutes and every seconds. Thus it is constant. I guess the only thing is to embrace that changes are unavoidable and try to see it with a different point of view. Think positively and things may not be that after all.

Well, not only clients have uncertainty. Even me too.... haha.... Of course I won't want to just leave my clients just like that on their own.... I have to asure them that everything will be okay.... and that I pray that the person taking over will be responsible and good. I wouldn't say I am good.... but I hope that the person taking over will at least do his part in the care of the clients. =)

Same situation applies at the other department that I am going to. Parents are also uncertain about the new therapist, who is me. Haha.... thanks to serene who is going to asure these panic parents.

I guess people are all afraid of changes but once we see that these changes are not that threathening, we will start to embrace them. But before that comes, we need to take that very 1st step towards change. =P

Well, other change of department....... other change that I am having soon is that I have signed up for my degree conversion with SGH PGAHI and La Trobe University. That means I am going to be part-time student soon.....

Oh.... changing to area in paediatrics also means that I might be able to take leave slightly easier as compared to when I am in adult rehab..... cause these clients of mine will be away for exams.. holidays too.....

Till now, I have 18 days to leave to clear..... come december it will be 29 days...... how am I going to clear them...... *ponder*

Holidays anyone?? =D

Oh.... and to all my friends who are going to study soon..... esp SY.... don't worry about the changes..... it will be smooth sailing before you knows it.... =)

Appreciative

Word of Wisdom from my client:

Sometimes we should show our appreciative to people who care for us and love. Because it may be too late when the people leave us that we start to want to be appreciative of them.

This client of mine.... tends to complain about his wife quite alot..... but when the wife not around.... he will say his wife is very good... he is appreciative of the wife....

He is just so STUBBORN!!! He just don't want to praise the wife in front of others..... I guess most guys are like that right? lolx...

Patience vs Impulsiveness

Patience vs Impulsiveness. How many of you are patience and who are impulsive?

Well, I guess people behave differently at different point of time to different people. Just like I can be very patience to my clients (aka patients). On the other hand, you can be very impulsive or impatience to people close to you. But yet sometimes, you can be very patience to people close to you too. Humans are a bunch of confusing animals huh?

Hmmm.... well..... I guess I will remain patience for now..... =) Perhaps back to what I am feeling few months back, as blogged on 29th March 2008. Although both describes different situations altogether, it best describes what I am thinking now......

No matter what....


I will be....

Right here waiting for you .....


Because......

Nothing gonna change my love for you.....


And....

I will always love you


You know that I will be....

Saving all my love for you


and that....

Everything I do, I do it for you

Sometimes using songs is a good way to link up all your thoughts and feelings isn't it?

=)

How my mind works - Reformer

THE REFORMER

About Me
You are a single-minded person who takes pride in making sound judgements and likes to earn the respect of others.


Interactions
You are idealistic and can be extremely loyal and accepting of others. You often remain on the sidelines in social situations choosing to observe rather than participate.You probably feel most comfortable in relaxed settings with your closest friends or your partner. A few special relationships are sometimes worth more than a huge gang of friends.


Thinking
You enjoy being well-informed and put a great deal of energy into building your understanding and knowledge. The written word can be very comforting to you. You probably enjoy being surrounded by books. You've got an almost nerdy love of tiny details.


Focus
Inspired by anything new and unusual, you tend to look to the future and try to be open to different perspectives on life. You're a bit of a connectivity junkie. You use all the latest gadgetry. Sometimes it's easier than having to talk face to face.

HAha..... This: "You're a bit of a connectivity junkie. You use all the latest gadgetry. Sometimes it's easier than having to talk face to face." is just so true!!! haiz.....

Horoscope for the day - So true!

Your heart is like a sailing ship on the windswept seas during a storm. You love the idea of the adventure, yet you also long for quieter times so you can relax and enjoy the beauty of your journey. Never mind your nostalgia or restless fantasies. You have work to do in the present moment as the emotional intensity builds to a climax. Don't worry; calmer weather is on the way.