Old Songs

All of a sudden went to listen to some old songs as I heard this phrase “坚持到底" on TV just now....

Thus, wish to share this song with my readers.... whatever you do, do not give up.

坚持到底.... tough time don't last, tough men do..... so NEVER EVER EVER GIVE UP!

Few incidents in my life I'm glad that I never give up and thus I am what I am today......

Incident #1
I failed my JC 1 in 2001. I was told to go to ARTS STREAM. And of course to GIVE UP NPCC. MY civics tutor of course has the best intention in mind but she failed to understand that that time, NPCC was my life. So what decision did I take?

Haha.... I NOT ONLY did I stay in SCIENCE STREAM, I took up a more SIONG CCA/ECA in addition to my NPCC and that is COLLEGE DRAGONBOATING. lolx.... I don't remember how I really brave through that 2 more years in JC. But I just know that I want to prove peopl wrong that I can make it. Perhaps it was due to my STUBBORNESS and my desire to win attutide (which may not be very obvious to some ppl).
HAha.... I did quite well in my repeated JC1... I think I got AEE in Sem 1... as compared to OFF the year before..... and sem 2 I think I got CDE. As i was typing this, I remembered I can still access my JC portal.... so here is my results..... not fantastic.... but who cares? lolx....

Haha... finally during the A Level, I scored CDD, which I was pretty upset over it for a while. But that never get me down for long. I tried all my means to send in all my relevant documents to courses that I wanted in University. In the end, I didn't really got into what I wanted. But was still offered a place in NTU Engineering. At the same time, I was offered Dip in Occupational Therapy. Took a while to decide what I want to do and told myself not to regret the decision whatever may come. And there I was..... an Occupational Therapy Student. But things wasn't that smooth sailing after all.......


Incident #2
I was in dilemma whether I want to be an OT when I graduated or to join SPF after my degree conversion. And in addition, I have to handle the financial issues for my studies. That time my mom's CPF wasn't enough to pay for my education. Thus, I took up bank loan from DBS. But that only meant 75% of the fees and I have to fork out the additional 25%. As a student with only $300/mth which includes my transports, lecture notes, food expenses and miscellances. How am I suppose to pay? And being someone with no biology and no strong pure sciences background, it makes studying difficult. I was called into my CT's room to talk to me. Thank god Rayyan introduced me to Quatum Dynamics, which is known as Synergy Dynamic now. Though the pay wasn't that fantastic and often late (hahaha....), it helps me brave through the storm. Just that all of the pay was always used to pay my school fees. I was also known to be sometimes-part timers to them.... haha.... as I can't commit on a regular basis... only when I have no attachments. Oh.... I was also a tuition teacher during the 1st year too.

Things got slight better as the years go by..... and managed to brave through all my attachments with quite fairly good results. =)


Well, I am not blogging this to tell you how much I have gone through and you should empathise with me for going through these.... What I want to share is, have faith and confidence in yourself in whatever you decided to do. Don't give up on what you want to achieve.

坚持到底 okay? =)

坚持到底- 阿杜

Addictive

These are my addictives at the moment:

• SY

SY is like a drug.....I called it THE ICE. .... lolx.... Well.... it is also like the Pringles..... Once you start you can't stop......

• Persimmon, also know as Sharon Fruit

This fruit is super sweet..... As you know I have sweet tooth. I am super in LOVE with this fruit! Have been eating at least 1 everyday. This is also good for health. It was said to reduce heart diseases and prevent heart attack. Anyone wants? =P

• Facebook

How can I not be addicted to this network site. I am a "TECHNO" and "GADGET" Frek according to personality tests..... haha....

Blogging

How can I not blog about my thoughts and feelings? As well as what is happening to me and the world? Who knows? I might get early dementia and forget everyone that I know.....

But most importantly, I can look back and reflect on myself. To ensure that I wouldn't make the same mistakes over and over again. This helps me to look back but move forward..... =)

Shape Run 2008

My Shape Run is just

away.......

And I have only ran like twice.... the recent one on Thursday was not very good as I stopped for the first time before I even completed 1 round of bedok reservoir, which is 4.3km.

I had a warm-up jog from my house to bedok reservoir, which took me about 11 mins, including stops at traffic lights, etc. But even before I reached, I already have stitches. I still continue to run jog and apparently it got slightly better.

Just when I was jogging past my 2km, I started to feel pain on the medial side of my ankle. I guess must be due to the impact as well as my slight knock knees. I forced myself to jog till 2.5km before I decided to stop and walk. The timing was horrible. The pain was terrible too.... but got better during the walk. Then I decided to start to jog again after 3.0km. Thus for this 4.3km jog-run, it took me 35:53 minutes.

Maybe I will go for another run tomorrow if I can wake up. I shall have a regular run of twice weekly for the next 3 weeks and 1 run on the week before 20 July 2008. And that means I only have 7 more runs to go. Too bad I don't know how to swim. If not, I will go and swim to improve my endurance which is really bad.... lolx... I guess my last Great Eastern Run 2007, I managed to complete through determination and not so much on my endurance.

That time my timing was 1 hr 19 min. This time round, I hope to achieve 1 hr. And that means, I have to run 15 mins for 2.5km. It seems difficult to acheive that. But well, I shall see how in the next 2 weeks. If not, I guess I will stick to 1 hr 15mins. =)

Wish me luck! I will be back to update in 2 weeks time on my running.

Any supporter/s on that day? *bleh*

Anyway, it will be on 20th July 2008, 7.30am @ Padang.....

Uncertainty and Change

Uncertainty and change.

According to dictionary.com, the definitions are as follows:

Uncertainty. The condition of being unsure about someone or something.

Change. To make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone.

So how does change lead to uncertainty?

Let me use an example to illistrate this. I am going to change department next month, which is the following week. The clients that I am seeing now, some of them are asking about the next person taking over me. Most of my clients that I have, some of them I have seen them as long as a year, while others maybe a few months. Maybe, it is because I have already build the rapport with the clients and they are so comfortable with me. They are unsure whether the new person knows what to do with them, whether he knows about their problems. Thus, some of them were asking if they can choose not to change therapist.

Saw those italic words?

Change, comfortable, unsure and not to change.

All these we can use to explain change and uncertainty.

Sometimes, when human beings are so comfortable in our comfort zone, we resist change. We dislike being topple off our balance. Because we are so used to doing things the way we do, changes can make us unsure of ourselves. And all these will lead us to uncertainty.

But then again, we have to admit that change is constant. Change is happening every minutes and every seconds. Thus it is constant. I guess the only thing is to embrace that changes are unavoidable and try to see it with a different point of view. Think positively and things may not be that after all.

Well, not only clients have uncertainty. Even me too.... haha.... Of course I won't want to just leave my clients just like that on their own.... I have to asure them that everything will be okay.... and that I pray that the person taking over will be responsible and good. I wouldn't say I am good.... but I hope that the person taking over will at least do his part in the care of the clients. =)

Same situation applies at the other department that I am going to. Parents are also uncertain about the new therapist, who is me. Haha.... thanks to serene who is going to asure these panic parents.

I guess people are all afraid of changes but once we see that these changes are not that threathening, we will start to embrace them. But before that comes, we need to take that very 1st step towards change. =P

Well, other change of department....... other change that I am having soon is that I have signed up for my degree conversion with SGH PGAHI and La Trobe University. That means I am going to be part-time student soon.....

Oh.... changing to area in paediatrics also means that I might be able to take leave slightly easier as compared to when I am in adult rehab..... cause these clients of mine will be away for exams.. holidays too.....

Till now, I have 18 days to leave to clear..... come december it will be 29 days...... how am I going to clear them...... *ponder*

Holidays anyone?? =D

Oh.... and to all my friends who are going to study soon..... esp SY.... don't worry about the changes..... it will be smooth sailing before you knows it.... =)

Appreciative

Word of Wisdom from my client:

Sometimes we should show our appreciative to people who care for us and love. Because it may be too late when the people leave us that we start to want to be appreciative of them.

This client of mine.... tends to complain about his wife quite alot..... but when the wife not around.... he will say his wife is very good... he is appreciative of the wife....

He is just so STUBBORN!!! He just don't want to praise the wife in front of others..... I guess most guys are like that right? lolx...

Patience vs Impulsiveness

Patience vs Impulsiveness. How many of you are patience and who are impulsive?

Well, I guess people behave differently at different point of time to different people. Just like I can be very patience to my clients (aka patients). On the other hand, you can be very impulsive or impatience to people close to you. But yet sometimes, you can be very patience to people close to you too. Humans are a bunch of confusing animals huh?

Hmmm.... well..... I guess I will remain patience for now..... =) Perhaps back to what I am feeling few months back, as blogged on 29th March 2008. Although both describes different situations altogether, it best describes what I am thinking now......

No matter what....


I will be....

Right here waiting for you .....


Because......

Nothing gonna change my love for you.....


And....

I will always love you


You know that I will be....

Saving all my love for you


and that....

Everything I do, I do it for you

Sometimes using songs is a good way to link up all your thoughts and feelings isn't it?

=)

How my mind works - Reformer

THE REFORMER

About Me
You are a single-minded person who takes pride in making sound judgements and likes to earn the respect of others.


Interactions
You are idealistic and can be extremely loyal and accepting of others. You often remain on the sidelines in social situations choosing to observe rather than participate.You probably feel most comfortable in relaxed settings with your closest friends or your partner. A few special relationships are sometimes worth more than a huge gang of friends.


Thinking
You enjoy being well-informed and put a great deal of energy into building your understanding and knowledge. The written word can be very comforting to you. You probably enjoy being surrounded by books. You've got an almost nerdy love of tiny details.


Focus
Inspired by anything new and unusual, you tend to look to the future and try to be open to different perspectives on life. You're a bit of a connectivity junkie. You use all the latest gadgetry. Sometimes it's easier than having to talk face to face.

HAha..... This: "You're a bit of a connectivity junkie. You use all the latest gadgetry. Sometimes it's easier than having to talk face to face." is just so true!!! haiz.....

Horoscope for the day - So true!

Your heart is like a sailing ship on the windswept seas during a storm. You love the idea of the adventure, yet you also long for quieter times so you can relax and enjoy the beauty of your journey. Never mind your nostalgia or restless fantasies. You have work to do in the present moment as the emotional intensity builds to a climax. Don't worry; calmer weather is on the way.

Judah has grown....

Name: Judah

Gender: Male

Date of Birth: 04 June 2008

Age Level: Kindergarten

Interests: Going out with daddy and mummy and staring at daddy's fish tank... @ @

About Me: I am a little Rascal but I like animals especially kittens and puppies.

Big Expenditure

Today, don't know what got into me.... I spent alot.... haha.... but I guess they are worth the money.... since I needed them.....

Things I bought:

1. pair of shoes and a cute top
2. shorts
3. Lingeries

And I think everything total up to around $$170 - 180!!!!

Haha.... I guess Xiu Ling doesn't spend much.... but if she does..... it will be ALOT!!! haha....

See the pic of the top and 1 of the shorts that I took when I was trying them......


Isn't that looks cute? haha..... (someone said I shdn't say I am cute....)

Well..... that's all folks..... no pic of me trying my lingeries.... haha.... not for the eyes of the public.... didn't take them either..... *bleh*

Sunshine Magazine

I was too bored and I decided to play with photoshop and a photo of mine......


Cool isn't it? Anyone wants to be a covergirl/boy? Send me your photos now!!! haha.... I'll give you friendship price.... lolx.... just kidding....

I did another magazine called the attitude.... with my friend photo.... but I guess it will not be posted here.... lolx

Awful....

It is feeling awful that I can't seem to be able to help you with your problems, unlike the past when I can still contribute some solutions. These problems that you have now are just beyond any of our control. I know you are feeling awful that you tried to help when nobody wants to do so and yet when you helped such "unlucky" things happened. I know you are feeling regretful for volunteering yourself and get yourself affected.... I guess whatever things happened has happened....... we can't changed anything about it. I guess you know it too.... but just needed sometime alone and to get over it. =)

Sorry if I wasn't very sensitive enough this afternoon but I am just trying to be optimistic about things. That will make life better isn't it?

Sometimes when we think of things at a brighter side..... it may seem that things are not that bad after all..... everyone has their UPs and DOWNs. Maybe this year you have more downs than others but don't worry..... I am sure you will have your UPs soon..... if you persevere on....

"Life is like a rollar coaster. There are times when it is up and times when it is down. You can choose to dread about it or enjoy every moment of it. The choice is yours."

Don't know when you will ever read this SY...... but hope you are feeling less moody now... ...

Many FIRISTs.....

Been reflection on what are the many FIRISTs in my life for the past 6 months ... ....



Not in any particular order.....

1. SY


2. BEAUTY CARE: Rebonding(Dec 2007), Beauty and make-up products (Sept 2007), Eye trimming, Facial and eye treatment(RECENT!!!---> June 2008)


3. 1st Anniversary in my 1st FULL-TIME PERMENANT job


4. 1st photoshoot (May 2008)


5. "Virgin" trip to clubs and pubs