Sogns by Lea Salonga

I Honestly Love You - Lea Salonga

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In anoother place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you



Tomorrow - Lea Salonga

The sun will come out, tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow, there'll be sun
Jus' thinkin' about, tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs and the sorrow
'til there's none

When I'm stuck with the day that's gray and lonely
I just stick out my chin and grin and say, ohhh

The sun will come out, tomorrow
So you gotta hang on 'til tomorrow
Come what may...

Chorus:
Tomorrow, tomorrow
I love ya, tomorrow
You're always a day away

(instrumental)

The sun will come out, tomorrow
So you gotta hang on 'til tomorrow
Come what may...

(repeat chorus)

Tomorrow, tomorrow
I love ya, tomorrow
You're always a day a--way!

Resolution 2008

Hi all,

End of the year is always a good time to review on past resolutions.... and see what has been achieve and what hasn't.....

So what's my resolution for the year 2007?

• to do well in my studies academically and clinically ( I mean who doesn't right? haha)
Well.... I improved in my GPA by at least by 0.5... ;)

• to get a job that I like after I graduate..... perhaps most likely community setting ba....
  At the moment I still like what I am doing.....
• to get a water heater for the house (it has been spoilt for years...)
  Daddy said no need to buy..... maybe I think I'll still get.... cos the weather is so wierd nowadays....
• to get a new bed.... maybe a sofa bed? =)
  Haben get..... maybe soon... but definately have to be a sofa bed.....
• to become wiser and prettier of course.... haha....
  haha.... rebonded my hair.... but not sure if it has become prettier... maybe you guys can comment about it? =)
• to clean my room... haha... pack all my notes and books.....
  No need clean room le... no more room... haha... but still need to pack abit of my whole drawers of notes la....
• to go overseas with my family at the end of the year
  Its alrdy end of the yr le..... maybe before next yr July ba.....
• clear all my debts (my study loan and stufff) ...... haha... hopefully....
  Start to pay my debts liao.... but will only finished by next year....
• to meet up more of my friends before I start to work....
• to go backpacking.....
• to start saving regularly
  I'm glad that I started to save..... =)
• to do sports regularly
• to get a laptop/PC

My goals before I hit 30 has also been reviewed:

I have changed my loan amount before I bought myself an insurance.... it is an investment-link plan to be exact.... as I see the vulnarabilty of life ever since I started working in this line.... "such things wouldn't happen to me one" apparently happened to my clients....

Regarding degree conversion... ya... hopefully by 2009....

Saving my 1st 10k.... might be possible... but got to see... cos I want to buy my lappie...

To play sports...... stop for a while liao.... guess got to go back in 2008....

Driving license..... soon la... before 30 I guess....

Getting married?? I guess still far from it ah... lolz....

After review the above.... these are my resolutions for 2008 .....

• to run my 21km next year
• to clear my debts by end of 2008
• to go overseas by july 2008
• go backpacking
• sleep better.... how i dunno.....
• go out more often...
• cook more.... bake more....

More to add in.... but cannot think of at the moment.... will add in again in the next few days....

meanwhile..... advance happy new year and happy holiday to all.... =)

Updates

Well, been busy for the past few days... slpt past 2am and wake up at 6+ am..... was busy doing tribute for Mr Pal... but glad he appreciate our (Serene, me, Waiyin, Suresh) hardwork.... can see that he was very touched.... so.... our effort has been paid off... it worthed all the burning of midnight oil....

We didn't have much time to eat our dinner... as usual... As a perfectionist, I would try to perfect things to the best of my abilities... would not give up till the 11th hour... so guess u can see me and serene trying to perfect things up to 7.50pm.... when the presentation was supposed to screen at 8pm... lolz... HAha... it seems like me and serene always do such stuff... right ya serene?
Anyway thanks ah Serene... for helping... haha.... well... u know... me is always as stubborn as a cow.... really wonder if I am a "mouse" or "cow".... haha....

After that "farewell", Serene and me we went to bk to continue our dinner.... chatted... and of course..... do what we always do best....



And we actually took alot of photos with her hp and mine...but our dear Serene.... for some reasons... didn't save most of them... lolz....

Happy 23rd Bday and Belated 23rd....

Happy 23rd bday to myself!!!! Thanks for all the well-wishes/greetings from all my friends.... really appreciates it....

Birthday wishes/greetings by:

1. Yuan Quan (9 days in advanced in friendster....)
   
2. Rayyan (in msn last night)
3. Qiming (in msn last night also)
4. wC aka toilet (via msn at 12+am.... )
5. Nicky aka Kal el (via msn at 12+am)
6. Waimin (via face-face at work)
7. Juat (via face-face at work)
8. Yeng Yeng (via face-face at work)
9. Aunty Hasnah, our cleaner (via face-face at work)
10. cH (via sms, offered to meet me for lunch/dinner... so nice)
11. Jimmy (via sms, offerred to meet me after 10pm after his lesson if not raining)
12. Adam (via friendster)
    
13. Weiling (vis sms)
14. Serene (via sms)
15. Gregory (via face-face at work)
16. Danping (via facebook)
    
17. My Client 1 (via face-face at therapy... still ask Aunty Hasnah in Malay for my age...)
18. Shumin (via sms.... say I looked different with my rebonded hair)
19. Kevin (via msn.... and bought me in facebook and named me "expensive junk" which I later bought myself back.... )
20. Azman (via msn)
    
21. Wee Lung (via friendster messenger)
22. Zhijun, my superglue sister, sis of 7 years (via sms....)
23. Komathi, a camper of mine 2 yrs ago when I was an instructor in outdoor company (via msn)
24. Shikin aka kitty... (via msn)
25. Kenny (via msn)
    
26. Zhenru aka maria... (via phonecall.... haha... even "scold" me for not going out with a guy on my 23rd bday... lol... ask me to go and ask my clients to intro their sons/ grandsons... lolz...)
    
27. Jinwei, the rooster... (via sms)
28. Soo Mui (via sms)
29. Weiting (via sms)
30. Yanning (via sms)
    
31. Shuhui (via sms)
32. Ms Chee (via msn)
33. Clay (via msn)
    
34. Gary (via sms)
35. Suhaila (via sms)
36. Zixian (via msn)
37. Luppy (via msn)
38. Zub (via msn)
39. Siaoli, who was born on the same day as me... (via facebook)
40. Chris (via facebook)
    

Yeah.... thanks all.... it's kind of cool how technologies play a part here.... =)
hopefully I didn't miss anyone out .....

So below is an update on preparation for my 23rd bday.....

1. I went for hair-rebonding for the 1st time!!!
   
2. I went for eyebrows shaping for the first time....

Well, I also went for my virgin trip to the St James Power Station... ...

On the way there.... in the cab.....

Me in boiler room..... cute? =p

With aZ, 5 years friendship

With wC our belated bday boy, 7 years of friendship through thick n thin... mosquito bites and maggi mee....

Here the best part of the day....

wC and his erm... "panty"

The photo u are going to see next are only meant for 18 and above.... those below 18 are seeing at your own risk.... =p

Merry Christmas!


Lambogini for wC

Waterfall for us.... sweet taste... but burning sensation after taste


A group photo..... well... all guys again... except me... 2 gals cannot turned up

Anyway thanks PL for sending us back.... =p
Aiyo... they are planning another St James.....

scarely.... Please do not buy BRIEF for me.... whahaha.....

Updates

Yeah.... I am here for some updates.... been busy... or rather, too lazy to update, not as diligent as I used to be as compared as when I was a student. The number of posts here seems to have reduced tremendously... but well.... I'll try... so please bear with me for now....

Maybe I'll update on my work stuff:

1. Happy 6th month anniversary to myself, with SPD.....
   
2. Seeing more clients now, as compared to June when I just joined.... there's definitely lesser breathing space... but I believe there still is some for me.... hehe...
3. Enjoy my therapy time with my clients.... and with most of my colleagues as well....
   
4. Going on leave soon... for a break....
   

Ms Yiwei is back!

Our dear Ms Yiwei is back from Aussie... and Zub, Shuhui, Weiting, me and Yiwei had a gathering dinner at PS.... as usual.... we go to secret recipe.... had a great dinner.... laughing like nobody business over gossips...

As it was Friday night.... Yiwei and me decided to walk walk before we went home.... we strolled to ORchard.... it supposed to be late night shopping as it was a last friday of the month... but most shops seemed to be closed.... ya... so we walked and decided to stop by to talk..... guess we are all old liao.... need to take a rest.... haha.... then left at 11+ before we all missed our last train/bus....

Looking forward for our class gathering soon..... our taiwan gang can also meet up too..... maybe we should get a nicer name instead of calling ourselves taiwan gang.... lolz


23rd Birthday

Counting down to my birthday... ... 4 more days... don't have any plans yet... see how thing goes ba... got to work on my birthday too and the day after.... but taken off on 12 - 14 December.... plus weekends... I am free from 12 - 16 December!!! Anyone too freeeee.... nothing to do? Please sms me..... but 14 December should be having my class steamboat at our "Maria" house... looking fwd for the gathering... cum mahjong cum gossip sessions...

Since I already started working.... I thought of pampering myself for my 1st birthday on my 1st job....

1. Hair Rebonding
2. Eyebrows trimming?
   
3. Pitstop cafe?
4. Facial?
5. 1 new pants + blouse

Have been saving up for the past months.... but come to think of it.... I should pamper myself once in a while... money are saved for rainy days.... but what if it never rain at all? ;)

Hmm... sometimes it is during such "personal day" where you will think about soulmate.... Well, I know I have my friends and family around... but sometimes you just wish to have this particular soulmate around to share joys and woes with you... ... I know I will meet him one day...

I believe.....

haha.... just hope that it will not be during the time where I have 3 big candles on my cake... wahaha...

Nevertheless.... it is still good to be single... =)

Relationship Questions

Every Tuesday, the younger clients at my side will come for therapy....

There is this client who will always ask us questions regarding relationships, love.... etc....

These are some of the questions that he had asked us.... different answers were given.... different views from guys n gals.... Maybe you all can share your views too.... just click on the comments... and answer them! =)

1) Will you kiss a guy/gal on the first date?
2) Will you hold a guy's/gal hand on the first date?
3) What will you do when the guy wants to kiss you? Will you turn away?
4) Can guy and gal be buddy only and nothing more?
5) You have so many guy friends, why you don't have bf?


My answer:
1) and 2) No. I would not make the 1st move, even if I may like the guy. Reason being I don't know how the guy feels about me. I would not want to risk losing a friend.
3) Depends. Whether I like to guy or not. I may just look at his eyes and smile? =)
4) Yes. Friendship does exist between girl and guy... not just BGR.
5) Well, chemistry is very important. Some can only be friends... and it takes 2 hands to clap to be in a relationship. =)

Some other answers from others:
Client A (a gal) has the same answer as me.

Client B (a guy):
1) YES. Who pay for the dinner? (lolz.... I can't believe this was the answer....)

How about you guys? (and gals of course) =)

Looking back... Walking forward...

I have always wondered and I guess many of you too, what would life be if 3 yrs ago we didn't choose to study occupational therapy?

Would I be an engineer now? lol... Do you all see me as an engineer?

Or would I be a police officer in SPF? I think that's more likely ya?

But then again, when I see some of my clients.... and how appreciative they are of us, I can't help but think and FEEL that I have made the right choice.... I'm glad that I am of help to them...

Well, on the other hand, when I see my JC classmates doing well and earning far more than us... and I'm sure we will ask ourselves "why are we not earning as much?" It is not that we are not as good or educated as them..... hey... we have scholars in our course who have 4As in their A level leh.... It is that dishearthening la... maybe that's why they say salaries that we earn are always very sensitive to be disclosed... but that doesn't reflect the jobs that we do...

haha.... even my clients also think that we are earning lesser than we should be paid.... =p
Maybe, one day.... the people who determine the starting pay of allied health professionals should do something....

If not.... wait for me to be one la... lolz.... just kidding.... ;)

But I'm glad that most of my clients are appreciative of what we do... afterall, it is these little things that make us enjoy what we are doing....

你那么爱她

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个 每好风景
只是她早已离去

直到你相逢他早已经
不在对你留恋
最后的你 开始了一段挣扎

你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个 每好风景
只是她早已离去
直到你相逢她早已经
不在对你留恋
最后的你 开始了一段挣扎

你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

Grow old with you by Adam Sandler

[Billy Idol (Speaking):] Good afternoon everyone.
We're flying at 26,000 feet, moving
up to thirty thousand feet, and then we've got clear skies
all the way to Las Vegas, and right now we're bringing you some in-flight
entertainment. One of our first-class passengers would like to sing you a song
inspired by one of our coach passengers, and since we let our first-class
passengers do pretty much whatever they want, here he is.

[Robbie Hart (Singing):]
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

(Lyris extracted from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/adamsandler/growoldwithyou.html

Words of Wisdom from songs?

Both the following songs were heard at the charity show for cancer patients..... seems very meaningful to me.... Songs are in hokkien..... so it may vary from the actually meaning in chinese..... =)

歡喜就好

作詞：吳嘉祥　作曲：吳嘉祥
　
人生海海　甘需要攏了解　有時仔清醒　有時青菜
有人講好　一定有人講歹　若麥想嚇多　咱生活卡自在

歸工嫌車無夠叭　嫌厝無夠大　嫌菜煮了無好吃　嫌某尚歹看
駛到好車驚人偷　大厝歹拼掃　吃甲尚好驚血壓高　美某會兌人走

人生短短　好親像塊七逃　有時仔煩惱　有時輕可
問我到底　腹內有啥法寶　其實無撇步　歡喜就好


隨緣

作詞：陳百潭　作曲：陳百潭　編曲：徐嘉良

有緣無緣這一切隨緣凡事都放乎自然
無真無實的愛情緊變若夢醒　　就隨時再見
有緣無緣這一切隨緣凡事都放乎自然
人生路上有足多發展又何必在情路流璉
命中若注定是咱的　愛寶惜著這段良緣
反倒轉若不是咱的甭白目來製造孽緣
有緣無緣這一切隨緣凡事都放乎自然
人生路上有足多發展又何必在情路流璉

Who say clients learn from us?

Who says client learn things from us only? More often than not, we do learn alot of things from our clients - Life experience/Words of Wisdom.

Client A:

"It is good to save but save comfortably. Not till the stage where you stuff yourself with bread."

"Do not force yourself to run when you cannot run. If you cannot run this time, there is always another time. If you force yourself and something happens to you, there may not even have a next time."

Client B:

"It is important to find someone who you know when you wake up the next morning, will still be your wife(beside you), and not someone(only pretty on the outside) who you never know whether she will be beside you the next morning when you wake up."

Client C:

"If you can marry early, marry early and give birth early. Then, when your children grow up, you are still not that old."

2007 Great Eastern Run 10K

Today I went for my 1st run in my entire 22 years of my life..... but only 10km la.....

But to me, it is already a great achievement. I forced encouraged myself not to stop during the race, which I make it!!! I only stopped at water point for some sips of water. =)

And guess what? I managed to hit less than 1.5 hrs for the race!!!! My timing was 1 hour and 18 mins 45 sec!!!

Here's the photo for your viewing:

Me, Yengyeng and Juat!

Me and Juat

ME!!!! (Realised my thigh not too big! lol)

Close up of me with the race medal!

Chill @ Giraffe

Giraffe? Its that night safari? No... it's not..... It's .......

Giraffe is located opposite Plaza Singapura. This is exactly something I am looking for. A place for chill out and yet not too noisy with lots of people. (Too bad I know this place a bit late.... if not some things that had happened may be abit different.) But guess what? There were no more order of food after 9.45pm!!! Even snack or finger food..... haiz....

Anyway, the people of the day night are:

zJ, my super glue sister since 2000.....

wC, my another buddy from D2K and also my jogging kaki

sZ

aZ, who think has convinced me to go.... but hey... I wanted to go one.... if it wasn't I had run the next day.....

Hey...... don't forget about me........

Me... with my red burning face, as usual

The gang w/o hC, who was on the way from work.....

Anyway the guys went for 2nd round at spyder I heard..... I had to leave early as I don't want to have hang-over and not able to run.....

A Collage by aZ.... he called it montage.... but I still like COLLAGE.... lol

Quizzes

Your Heart is Feeling Open

You have no idea where your love path leads, but you're looking forward to the journey. For you, love as an adventure. While you may get hurt, that's the risk you have to take. You are receptive to any love or relationship that may come your way. You can't predict love! Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Anything... both good and bad Your current outlook on love: Free spirited and flexible Your love life will improve if you: Protect yourself a little. You don't have to be open to every romantic experience. Watch out for: Treating love as a game

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

Your Love Type: INFP

The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

What's Your Love Type?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think. Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now. For you, falling in love is all about flirting and feeling playful. You couldn't fall in love with someone who took life too seriously.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

You Are a Coy Flirt!

You're not so much a flirt as the type of girl who draws flirts in While you look like you're just relaxing, secretly you've got your game on A little look here, a little wink there... you give men the encouragement they crave And in return, they flirt up a storm with you - while you just sit and smile

What Kind of Flirty Girl Are You?

Bitter Sweet Coffee

Everything seems so right and sweet 2 weeks back....

I understand both of them has my interest at heart..... Both of them are RIGHT in their point of view....

BUT...... both of them are my friends....

手心是肉，手背也是肉。。。做什么选择都这么难。。。 不管做什么选择都会伤到一方。。。 只能把伤害减到最低。。。。

Hopefully I didn't make the wrong decision.....

Maybe it is just myself for being over-sensitive.... but things aren't just the same anymore......

Addendum to " Human are strange creatures"

People who are too dependent on others wished that they were more independent but sometimes people who are too independent yearn to have somebody to depend on......

Personality + Astrology results... ...

What Do Your Eyes Reveal?

My Result: Sincerely Sweet

Kind and genuine, you're the sort of gal who's always looking out for others and being a great friend. You have a big heart and can't help but open it up to those you're close with. When you're that pretty on the inside, you can't help but be beautiful on the outside, too.


When it comes to makeup, you like to keep things light and low-key. But that doesn't mean you don't enjoy getting dolled up on special occasions. And when you do, we'd guess you only add to your already sparkling and sweet self. You glow girl!

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Sun in Sagittarius:

Optimistic and freedom loving, you have an inborn sense of adventure and a zest for living. Sagittarius energy represents anything that takes one beyond normal boundaries. You appreciate the great outdoors because of the wide-open spaces and freedom it brings.

The real you can be quite idealistic and philosophical about life. Accepting and understanding abstract ideas and theories is natural for you. You seek truth and are basically very honest. Because of your willingness to "say what you see," this sign has earned a reputation for being somewhat blunt. As far as you're concerned there's no reason to beat around the bush when you can always take the direct and truthful approach. You would never willingly hurt someone's feelings, but try to remember that others may not be prepared to accept your well-meaning honesty. You can be quite gullible because you tend to accept things at face value. You expect the same honesty from others that you yourself express

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Which Hairstyle Matches You?

My Result: Sweet and Subtle

It shouldn't be too surprising to hear people think you're a sweetheart. Laidback and easygoing, you know when it comes right down to it, how you treat others is what counts. So, it's no wonder your signature hairstyle should be as natural and unpretentious as you.


With your big heart and fun spirit, you'd probably rather spend your time hanging out with friends than primping in the mirror. Why fuss if you don't have to, especially when it gives you more time to laugh and enjoy the moment? Whether you're blonde, brunette, or something in-between, your hairstyle is bound to be as bright and sunny as you are!

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What's Your Financial Forecast?

My Result: Promising

It looks like the financial weatherperson is predicting mostly sunny skies for you. Grounded and smart, you know a penny saved is a penny earned. But that doesn't mean you don't know how to enjoy life and splurge on something nice for yourself every once in a while.


You believe a little give-and-take is the key to long-term financial success. And this levelheaded attitude helps you maintain the delicate balance between spending now and saving for later. Keep up the good work!

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What's Your Morning Personality?

My Result: Dreaming of More Sleep

Maybe you work the late shift. Or perhaps you're a confirmed night owl. Whatever the case, you're typically off in dreamland come daylight. For late risers like you, the snooze button just isn't going to cut it. When that alarm goes off, you'd rather get a few more hours of sleep in than get up.


We'd guess you're at your most productive later in the day rather than first thing in the morning. While some people can function on minimal hours of sleep, perhaps you need a little extra shuteye. After all, extra beauty sleep could be just what the doctor ordered. So dream on, sleepyhead!

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The Colors of Love Test

My Result: Caring Partner

You value the special bond love can create and are likely to seek out someone who cherishes that deep connection too. Whether single or in a relationship, you're a compassionate person who cares about others. This strong people-sense makes you more skilled than most at understanding individuals' differences and reading others' moods. Above all, you're looking for a steadfast, loyal partner who you can trust to stand by you in good times and bad.

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I'm not the only one

Went out with hC, wC, aZ, jS to celebrate sZ bday.....

清一色都是男生，除了我。哎呀， 他们从来也没有把我当成女生呀。对他们来说我是一只小狗。。。 哈哈

Okay lah.... glad we still keep in contact despite some of us are no longer in the corps.... friendship of 7 years..... people that we always meet during one of our bday.....

I was quite shocked to hear that I am not the only one that has to either give up my bedroom or having someone to shift into the bedroom because sibling is getting married. jS's brother is getting married too... and heard that his parents are shifting into his room....

Well. I supposed to stay in my parents' room.... but I rather be 厅长 for the reason is clear: I do not want to change the "lifestyle" of my parents because I have to change mine because of my brother's marriage.

"What you don't want people to do unto you, don't do unto others."

This is the philosophy that I always believe in.....

Human are strange creatures

Don't you think so? Humans are never contented with what we have.

When we are short, we want to be taller. Taller people hopes to be shorter.
When we are thin, we want to gain weight. People on the higher side wants to lose weight.
People with lesser hair want to have more hair. People with thick hair like me wants to have thinner hair.

People with black hair wants to dye hair..... people with other colours admire those with black hair....
People with straight hair wants to have natural curl... people with natural curl wants to rebond....

People who are working yearns to go back to study.... yet students can't wait to get to the working society.....

Grass is always greener on the other side.....

But how long are we going to yearn about the grass next door only to realize that the green grass that we have has dried and yet we can't possibly get to the other side too?

That's why people are strange creatures......

Thanks pals

Thanks to those who have been encouraging during this period of time where I have issues to settle at home. It has more or less been settled.... and my emotions are not as intense as before... =)

Getting used to being 厅长。。。。 Typing this entry in the living room.... and sleeping in the living room....

Will be getting a sofa bed soon... but Ikea one is out of stock!!! Guess I gonna sleep on the floor... with mattress of course for the next few weeks.....

More updates when I get my new furnitures..... =)

Ignoring and distracting

For the past few weeks, I have been adopting ignoring and distracting methods to settle certain issues... ...

I will ignore the issue.... because I just don't want to face the problem.... I distract myself by going out... going for jog.... and even trying or taking to friends about their problems.... so that I will ignore mine for the moment... ...

Just wonder how long more I am able to ignore and distract myself....

Why can't you see?

I'm bloody pissed off why can't you see?
Where is the sense of respect you ought to give?
A decision made by you, yet consequences borne by me
Where is the logic you tell me?

It is not just shifting things out and around
It is changing a lifestyle that was previously mine
But soon it will become out of bound
And possibly out of mind
Where is the respect when the decision was made?
Have you ask me what opinion I would take?

Simple respect you can't give
You can't blame me when you didn't receive
Why can't you see, why can't you see?
It is not a matter of object rearrangement
But rather a life of re-adjustment.

Less resistant I might be
If you have consider me
Consider my thoughts and feelings
It is not a decision that affect you only
But it also include yours truly.

Why can't you see, why can't you see?
It is not a matter of object rearrangement
But rather a life of re-adjustment.
A decision made by you, yet consequences borne by me
Where is the logic you tell me?

- Quek, 2007

What do we see?

I was very inspired by the following poem, whether as an individual or as an occupational therapist. How often have we "labeled" people as someone who cannot dress themselves.... someone who require assistance in their activities of daily living, or even someone who requires maids or nurses to feed them? And how often we see them as a mother, as a daughter or as a worker? Of course as an OT, we have taken the roles of our clients into consideration when we plan our treatment goals for our clients/patients. But what about the general public? What did we see when we see someone on a wheelchair? What did we see when we see someone who cannot talk? Do we see someone who cannot walk? Or do we see a mother on a wheelchair with her daughter? Do we see someone who cannot talk; or someone using sign language to talk?

What do we see? LOOK CLOSER .........

LOOK CLOSER

What do you see, nurses, what do you see?

Are you thinking, when looking at me,

A crabbit old woman, not very wise,

Uncertain of habit, with fair away eyes,

Who dribbles her food, and makes no reply,

When you say in a loud voice: ‘I do wish you’d try’,

Who seems not to notice the things that you do,

And forever is losing a stocking or shoes,

Who, quite unresisting, lets you do as you will

With bathing and feeding, the long day to fill?

Is that what you are thinking, is that what you see?

Then open your eyes, you’re not looking at me.

I’ll tell you who I am, as I sit here so still,

As I move at your bidding, as I eat at your will,

I’m a small child of ten, with a father and mother,

Brothers and sisters, who love one another,

A young girl of sixteen with wings on her feet,

Dreaming that soon a true love she’ll meet;

A bride now at twenty – my heart gives a leap,

Remembering the vows that I promised to keep;

At twenty five now I have young of my own,

Who need me to build a secure, happy home;

A woman of thirty, my young now grow fast,

Bound to each other with ties that should last;

At forty my young sons will soon all be gone,

But my man stays beside me to see I don’t mourn;

At fifty once more babies play round my knee;

Again we know children, my loved one and me.

Dark days are upon me, my husband is dead,

I look at the future, I shudder with dread,

For my young are all busy with young of their own,

And I think of the years and the love that I’ve known.

I’m an old woman now and the nature is cruel,

‘Tis her jest to make old age look a fool.

The body it crumbles, grace and vigour depart,

There now is a stone where I once had a heart.

But inside this old carcase a young girl still dwells,

And now and again my battered heart swells.

I remembered the joys, I remembered the pain,

And I’m loving and living life over again.

I think of the years, all too few – gone too fast,

And accept the stark fact that nothing can last,

So open your eyes, nurses, open and see,

Not a crabbit old woman, look closer – see ME.

- Anon

Women's Wisdom Reading for Xiu Ling

Sun in Sagittarius:

Xiu Ling, you were born under the sign of Sagittarius and your ruling planet is Jupiter, the planet of expansion, joy and good fortune.

You are a very optimistic person, with a good disposition and a lot of enthusiasm. You like movement and this will lead you to participate in sports, to travel, or to maintain a very intense social life. You love freedom and hate daily routine. You love outdoor activities, contact with nature, and adventurous situations. You are very restless and curious, which will engender unexpected and risky situations. Thanks to your ingenuity and optimism you will always come out ahead, either by receiving unexpected help or by simply ignoring the problems around you.

You like to share your life and you are very generous with your resources. You desire knowledge and you will study, investigate, and exchange ideas with others. You find yourself very attracted to faraway lands and different cultures, and are always willing to travel and learn. You have a facility for communicating and learning languages, and your natural attractiveness will allow you to make friends easily. You will always have a childlike, naive and spontaneous attitude.


The above is very true isn't it? I love outdoor... nature... adventurous situations.... but why I am not doing them now?
I was thinking of giving myself 2 years to it.... but... will it be too late?

Ponder.....

Updates 2

31st August

Met up with some CIs.... Jeff, Murni, cH, sZ, Azman,etc. At first was thinking twice of meeting up. i was quite tired after work, as usual. But well, decided to go in the end. Hmm... as usual again, everyone was late.... has it become a trend already eh? Especially the organiser...

Usual hangout, went to coffee bean.... had a chat with them... or rather I was on the phone with "Maria".... a respite for both ourselves.... didn't know we chatted for so long.... about 1 hr!!! Seems like everyone is okay.... so far so good.... guess we will meet up pretty soon too... as wynne is getting married!!!! Feeling happy for her....


1st September

That day was my YEC BGM..... had a movie screening at century square. Almost full house. Some people 'fly aeroplane'... didn't come in the end...

But everything ended nicely.... even the positions were elected. As expected, I am the General Secretary for the current term YEC.

Suppose to go and celebrate Daddy Sanath's BD at his office.... was too tired and not feeling very well.... thus have to give it a miss.... haiz....


6th September

I went back to Tiong Bahru for meeting and it ended at 5 mins past 7. And after that, rush back to Tampines to meet Gary for a dinner.

Hmm.... we had a nice chat and dinner from 8.15 to close to 10pm. HAha... didn't know we can talk so much... seems like anything under the sun.....


Nothing much for the rest of the week.... but I am going on course on the 12th!!!! Looking forward for it! =)

Update 1

Sorry for my long absence. I realize I haven't been blogging for almost a month, which is a rare case for me. Guess work has taken most of my energy to blog. Or rather work has taken almost 70% of my waking hours and whatever happens in these 70% are to remind confidential. Thus I am only allowed to blog what happens outside the 70%, unless I blogged about what happens in my dream, which I always forget when I wake up.

Therefore, I am going to blog about what happens during the 30% of my waking hours as well as in the weekends. =)

22nd August
Finally I arranged for a dinner appointment with my friend after work. Even the Head of my Dept encourages me to go out. Haha... been going home everyday after work. =)

I met Jimmy for dinner. It was a long time since we have seen each other. We chatted during the dinner and it seems like we have all grow older and moved on. We no longer immerse ourselves in activities that we were passionate about when we were younger. Not that we were no longer passionate but rather we have to prioritize on what we want in life.

Like I always remember what Mr Seong says, "NPCC is just ultimately a CCA."

In another occasion (where we spend the whole day, for many days in HQ), he said, "You all spent all your time here, have you thought that what if one day you returns home and found that your loved ones are no longer there?"

I guess people moved on. Some still able to juggle and commit to what they believe in and have passion about. Maybe not for me at the moment. Let me juggle well with my work, friends, family and other commitments first.

But it was nice catching up with Jimmy. =) Seems like he had changed his hair colours.

26th August

Our H2O is back for the weekends to celebrate her mom's 60th birthday~~~~ "Happy Birthday Aunty!"

Here are some photos of our gathering......

The 2 August Babies..... Belated 23rd Birthday!

H2O with her favourite Lamb stew

How can I not take photo with our dearest H20? =)

Weiting, H20 and Serene

Us!!!! Too bad 'Maria' cannot join us.....

Hey...... this is also a gathering for the new graduated Occupational Therapists.....