God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. And ME to share all the pain, laughter, tears, sorrow,happiness, sun and rain with you! Let us endure all the 暴风雨 and 彩虹 together!

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Final Evaluation done

Final Evaluation done... ...

There's definately more room for improvements..... but well, not as bad as I expected la...

CSM was late.... she thought it was 4.30pm, when it was supposed to be 2-4pm.... so both me and Z didn't get to be observe by her....

So, was it a blessing in disguise?

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

I've heard it before

Yes.... I've heard it before.... it was from CSM.....
Now it was from my sup....

The C word.... committments....

Yes... i do agree I have lotsa committments..... from NPCC to TEAM to YEC......

But wait..... aren't these committments the ones who helped me grow.... go on with life?? Those that brighten my days when I am down??

I felt that I am listening to my heart more than my head nowadays.....

I hate committments actually.... thus.... these committments are those that I think thru and I can commit to it... before I decide to go on with it.....

NPCC.... it has become a less of a comittment nowadays due to the 5 day work week.... and seeing my next sem timetable.... there's no way I can ever go back to assist in training.... thus, I try all my means to go down on weekends and my sch holidays if there are NPCC training.....

TEAM.... the committment that I will never regret..... It is more than a committment.... I have found people who I can proudly call a TEAM and someone who I can proudly call daddy...
A TEAM who I enjoyed being with.... regardless of where I am and how long we have known each other.....

YEC.... a committment that I took up years ahead but not as long as NPCC.... but I enjoyed working in the committee.... for... there are some people who always make my day.... thou they always makes FUN of me.... while there are few who talks about me.... but well.... cos they don't know me enough.... and I don't think I need them to know me enough.... =p

Tuition is another "committment"..... but well..... if I don't commit to it.... I can't even con't my studies la.... so.... now it is a P word...

Prioritize..... I will.... but now time to slp.... good nite friends....

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

4 more days to go ... ...

4 more days to go.... it will be the end of the 4 weeks attachement.

Soon as you can say but I feel that I am performing under my expectations... not sure it is under my supervisor expectations too.... but then.... he said so far so good...

But maybe like what daddy said.... I am a pefectionist.... and it really bothers me when I can't perform up to mine and others expectations.... my grade for my previous CE was B+.... I think I would be glad if I can just get a D now....

Though the saying goes,

"You can never live up to everyone's expectations but you can live up to your own."

But now, I am not performing up to my own expectation.....

4 more days to go... and lecturers coming on wednesday....

I guess, I didn't put in alot of effort as I should be putting in.... ....

Is it just me? or is the rest feeling the same too?

Monday, December 26, 2005

1 yr anniversary of return of the OEPians and Tsunami

Today, marks the 1 yr anniversay of the return of OEPians.....


Photo of yester-year at the airport......

XmAS Dinner at Daddy Sanath's place.....

Yesterday was the day that I've been waiting for...... xMas Dinner at Daddy Sanath's place aka home coming by Daddy Sanath.

I've finally saw the siblings too..... shanae really looks like mummy..... =P

The dinner's really cool man....
Esp. the rice.... heard that daddy's cook it.... didn't know Daddy Sanath can cook.... this adds up to 2 Daddys that can cook!!! =p
Though I couldn't eat beef..... daddy had prepared ham.... yeah.... so understanding and considerate....
The onions soup was nice too.....
Thanks Daddy for the M&Ms too.... you remembered!! LOLz..... Was thinking of having it all by myself... but too paiseh to finish up all by myself... so shared with the rest lor... =p hehe... but thanks... really appreciate it!

We were chatting.... joking around.... and the TEAM and Ray played Monopoly.... and I won!!! LOLz... Then J and S started playing twister...... so obscence position sia....

Well, as I don't really drink.... but how can I miss out during such a occasion to drink.....
so, I had a glass of red wine and a vodka lime..... =p
As usual, I am as red as a lobster after the 2 drinks..... At least I am not drunk la....
Just that my body is hot warm and red la..... and abit nausea....

Was webcaming with sis too... hey gal... cheer up.... the TEAM will always be with you okay?? Will be waiting for your return... and we shall go visit Daddy's palace again? cos i nv visit his other rooms.... hehe....
This quote is for you... though I have said it before,



" I can't change yesterday, but I can make the most of today and look with hope towards tomorrow."

I'm sure your friend will understand..... take care.... and hope to see you real soon.... = p

The thing that I been waiting for too, is the gift exhange. Well, got my gift from one member of the TEAM. Thus, I will not expect something practical and nice la... haha.... cos the guys in the TEAM are cheeky... and well.... I got the present from J... just when they were cheering.... I had already expected there is something wrong with the present.....
guess what?? I got a SEX TOY!!! Yup... you didn't see wrong... it was a SEX TOY.... It was a handcuff.... GLOW IN THE DARK somemore.....
S got the gift from daddy..... a HP pouch.... something that I thought of getting also.... *great minds think alike man*
J got from Raymond, and a dummy present from daddy.... it was a ... ... *it has been removed as there are under 18s who are reading my blog. If you are interested, pls msn me.... *
Pheobe got her present from S.... and it was..... *it has also been removed as there are under 18s who are reading my blog. If you are interested, pls msn me.... *

Daddy got something interesting too.... some liquid in a bottle..... must shake before use *but aren't most liquid in bottles also need to shake before use?? LOLz*

It was a really enjoyable night!!!

Thanks Daddy and Family for the invites and the home coming.... it really makes us feel at home....

Have a blessed Christmas and a great new year ahead!

Saturday, December 24, 2005

MeRRy ChRisTmAs to OnE and ALL

The following is dedicated to all my friends, esp. to the TEAM, which includes (in no particular order of merit): Daddy Sanath, Murni, Theresa, Keigo, Simon, Jeremy and Ridzwan. This is also dedicated to people who has guide me before, pple like : Danping, Yurong, Steven, Shumin, Kee Leng, Zachia, cH, Xin Ying, Norliana, Fadzlinda, etc......

Have a Blessed Christmas!

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Today is Christmas Eve
I'd like to shout and say
How great you are to us
In many, many ways
When we go astray
You'll show us all the way
And guide us back to the right footpath
Without any fuss

Christmas's here, Christmas's here
We'll like you to hear
You are our greatest friend
Forever till the end!

Thursday, December 22, 2005

My heart will go on.....

Today, everybody makes my day!!!

First, it was daddy sanath..... thanks for the SMSes.... and the encouraging words la..... it suppose to be a just a morning sms... but ended up few SMSes... but thanks really....

Next, was one of my clients...... one of the OTAs was doing stretching for him... but he was screaming.... and say he would punch him etc.... LOLz... then my friend went over and ask him if he wanted him to stretch for him.... he say don't want...... but when my friend asked if he wants me to do stretching for him... he said yes..... haha.... so i did la...... he didn't scream at all sia.... he just endured through..... his smiles are so nice and cute too......

Next, another client of mine said that she prefered me than her volunteer..... lolz.... and she said "die" when the volunteer reached there.... ;p

Before lunch, I saw another client of mine who said he was not coming cos he had medical check-up.... but he came after his check-up and his maid said he wanted to come..... ;p

Then, there was this client who promised me that he will do the exercise at home.... he said because of me.... so sweet rite?? LOLz.....

Then, was my friend's client.... when I say "hello" to him.... he said "hello" back and smile.....
my friend was like....... cos he nv smile to him...haha.... then when my friend ask me to say bye to this client, the client replied back and smile..... he was like...... keke.....

Thanks guys for making my day!!!!

Hope these will make my heart go on . . . . . .

" Tears of today will turn into strength of tomorrow."

" I can't change yesterday but I can make the most of today and look with hope towards tomorrow."

Will my heart go on?

Soon, clinicals will come to an end.....

At this point of time, I am starting to question myself
" Is this course really for me?"
" Do I like this course or I like volunteering?"

Things that happened yesterday, added on to this feelings of uncertainty..... and I guess it will and has affected me.....

6 more days to go.....

WIll my heart go on?

Friday, December 16, 2005

Dedications from Theresa.....

Dedication from Theresa......

doggie - When I got to know you back in Dec 2002, I was fearful of you coz you were my CII. And I must tell you, you looked really fierce?! Hahas~

When I saw you again during OEP, I was like "Oh shit! My CII is here!" After so many trials and tribulations, err I mean HQ events, our friendship flourished. During OEP, you've proven yourself to be a very capable Finance OIC.

To me, you are so much more. You're a mentor, working partner, friend, companion, fellow OEPian and now test-tube sister =D Muahahas~ I'm so glad I gotta work with you again this year for MegaCamp! Albeit OEP concluded, we have never drifted apart.

I hope we'll remain this close for the many more years to come =) Thank you for being such a great listener and advisor and may you have a fulfilling and exciting adulthood ahead =)

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Thanks hamster for the dedication!!! =p

Thursday, December 15, 2005

There's nothing like hearing Daddy Sanath's voice.....

Hey.... I was like having slight headache and don't feel like doing anything untill Daddy called!!!!

Lol....

thanks for the call ya..... you guys enjoy the rope course!!


In other news, today, the clients reminded me of my Dad(flesh and blood one la)... it reminded me how old my dad is now....my dad is already 61 this year!!! I thanked god for his health..... and this reminds me how much quality time I actually spend with my dad nowadays.....

Ponder..... Ponder.....

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Test-tube babies of Sanath Marc Unite!

Dedicated to Daddy Sanath and Test tube babies of Sanath Marc Ee Yu Shou Liang! LOL

Test-tube babies of Sanath Marc Unite!

Shake the test tubes
Shake Shake the test tubes
Shake the test tubes
Shake Shake the test tubes

Pop the test tubes
Pop Pop the test tubes
Pop the test tubes
Pop Pop the test tubes

Fly the babies
Fly Fly the babies
Fly the babies
Fly Fly the babies

Test-tube babies of Sanath Marc Unite!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Thanks Daddy Sanath and Mummy for the ride

I was talking to my supervisor when my phone vibrated - SMS.

I hope guessed it was Daddy.......

I didn't check it immediately 'cause not very nice mah....

Then, it vibrated again - call.

It was "Sanath Daddy".

Again, I didn't pick up. But when my sup was talking to someone, I took a peek at my phone. Just as I guess, I was Sanath daddy......

I called back and he offered to give me a lift home!!!!

Went to nursery to walk walk with daddy, mummy and Jeremy......

Thanks for the ride ya daddy..... ;p
It was so great to see you guys, esp after a long day of work.....

Looking forward for the "home-coming"......

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Thanks guys for being there on my 21st

Heya..... I really thank those who came to meet me on my 21st bday!!!!

Before that, let me tell you my program of that day.....

I went to Tampines North CC for blood donation!!!! Wow..... doing a good deed on my 21st birthday..... Actually it is just so qiao la..... Cos I have always tell myself that I will donate if Tampines were to have a blood donation drive.... and I did! On my birthday...... so I went lor...

Well, so I was late meeting Yiwei, huihui and serene..... suppose to meet the rest of taiwan gang one.... but Weiting caught a flu.... shuhui has to wait for some singtel/singnet ppl..... xP alrdy has appt with friends.....

But then..... I really appreciate serene for turning up!!!! thanks gal.....
Thanks Yiwei, Huihui and serene for the gift!!!!
I really like the film thingy!!! As for the bag... lolz... I will TRY not to put too heavy things inside la... if not scolosis rite?? haha....

Next, went to meet up with Ex-area 11 ppl.... as usual.... onli 3 of them turned up.....
They were Phuilee, HC and arzman.... Thanks for the Pizza treat!!!
Went to coffee bean, tampines after that.... to wait for wc and sZ.....
sZ came and then left to buy a cake.... a fruit cake....
Then the guys are trying to throw cake on my face la....
then in the end.... the stupid sZ poke his finger into my eyes la....
But anyway..... really appreciate it la... ;p

Today, I went to meet the TEAM. Murni and Daddy cannot make it today......
Murni got something on and Daddy got work to do.......
But anyway, thanks the TEAM for the watch la.... I am so paiseh to tell u all what I wanted la... cause all these things are more of want than needs la.... haha.....
After that, went to chill at Coffee bean.....

I am looking forward to go and chill at daddy's place.... esp. when he had just painted the house..... at the same time.... daddy.... please take care of yourself!!! (thou I know most prob you won't get to read this la.... = P )

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Thank you list (in no particular order of merit):
  • Daddy Sanath and Mummy for the SMS and the call....... really appreciate it..... I still keep the sms wor.....
  • Theresa, my test-tube sis, thanks for the touching sms too... and not forgetting the call....
  • Murni, for the sms too.....
  • Simon and Keigo..... for the call too....
  • Jeremy.... thou yr wishes came late.... but it is okay... you are working mah... so forgiven....
  • Rid, for the woof woof.....
  • XiaoFen, Joce and Theresa for turning up on the 9th.
  • Huihui, for helping me to coordinate the meeting up on the 10th..... and the gifts!!!
  • Serene, for turning up..... a surprise!!! thanks..... =P
  • Yiwei, thanks for the presents....
  • Phuilee, Arzman and Hc for the Dinner Treat and helping me take my film present....
  • wC for turning up at the 11th hour....
  • sZ for the birthday cake... and the "poke in my eye"

Thanks to others who had wishes me happy birthday through smses....

Thanks once again.....

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Birthday wishes:

  • To do well in my studies and attachment of course...... esp when I am in the middle of my attachment
  • To continue to work with QD..... esp there are so many interesting ppl like Daddy, Mummy, Jeremy, Simon, Keigo, Theresa, Rid, Murni around.....
  • Daddy to take care of himself and speed-recovery....
  • And many many more....... (can't think of any more things...)

Time to bathe and get back to do my preparation for my attachment tommorrow.....

Take care and will update you guys soon.

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Those were the days - Yesteryear

Thanks Hamster, Joce and Xiaofen lao shi for turning up.....

Really have a great time thinking what we did at this point of time 1 year ago....

Still remembering that xF has to ask yR to help her zip her sleeping bag...... hamster and me with kl, having beside the stove;under the stars talk..... with orchestra in the middle of the night; including me...... and the Sister Act dunno how many episodes..... about friendship....

Not forgetting that I used chopper to cut a cake!!! and "red marker egg" for birthday.....

Below are the photos that I have taken on my 20th birthday..... in China.... my friends were trying to slaughter the chicken for me.....

(Please note that the below pictures may be gross and the writer will not bear any responsible for any nightmare/s caused on the reader.)













Steps on how to kill a chicken in a foreign country



Thursday, December 08, 2005

Overwhelming

Clincals were overwhelming. There is no time for us me to think and reflect what I have just done/what has been taught, etc.

Once I reached home, I will be super TIRED to do anything.......

No doubt I enjoy the clinicals very much..... It is very enriching...... the clients are all very friendly. Due to confidentiality, I am not gonna to mention anything. They are really really nice people.....

But I guess things will be better once I get used to what is common and what to observe.
Just like drill..... the mistakes are easy spotted.... it is because we know what to observe.... but all these come with experiences....... but I will be able to know what to observe aft this attachments.....

What I felt the most stressful thing is that I am place with someone who has better grasp of the knowledge (no offence) and skills than I do..... thus the supervisor is able to compare us..... but then.... haiz......

We shall see then....

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

1 month anniversary, TEAM

Today marks the 1 month anniversay TEAM!

The day, 07 Novemeber 2005, it marks the start of our true friendship. The start of BIG Family, with test tube babies who are apart from each other of 7 months......

It is amazing how we became closer from strangers to friends...... from strangers who we don't talk much to friends who we can joke about anything, anywhere. And most of the time... erm.... R21?? lolz....

The strange thing is that, though it is 1 month anniversay, it feels like it like a year? The strong bond that we have build have surpassed some of the bonds that I have with my other friends.

Can anyone remembers the first time that we met? That was the first time I met the guys - Keigo, Jeremy and Simon. I still remember that Jeremy was sitting on my left, followed by Rid, Simon, Keigo, Murni, Theresa and Daddy..... That day I just finished 1 of my papers..... Theresa drove me there.... thanks for the ride! Keigo and Simon seems to be very quiet that day and I thought that Keigo wasn't local because of his name.

The next time was at Starbucks. After daddy left, we talked abit more but still, don't really know each other. Even up to the day we met outside PLMGS.

The care and concern we had for one another is genuine. Something that comes from the heart. Just like the day daddy fell.... all of us are worried for him....

Daddy, just like him, perserve on to motivate the TEAM, endure the pain and yet crack jokes to lighten the atmosphere. AGAIN, try another trust fall, to gain confidence of the people. Daddy Sanath, a very motivational person.

Keigo and Simon, though they had little camp experiences, they did very well to motivate and cheer their teams on. Bonded well with the team as well.

Jeremy, a guy who can make his chest moves and is very proud of it! A guy who wants to do alot of things.... a guy with ambitions......

Murni, someone who I knew before the MegaCamp. Someone who I have not work with for a long long time. I believe she opens up more when she knows the person better. Just like me! Need to warm up to the person/people first.

Theresa aka hamster, someone who I already knew...... OEPian. She will do her best but well, it is okay if the results didn't turn out as well.... so long we RECOVER (from daddy). Our relationship is becoming complicated. From OEPian to hamster and doggie to now..... TEST TUBE BABIES. All thanks to Daddy Sanath! = )

How strange can it be? A 4 days 3 nights camp can totally change the life story of the 8 young people, different personalities, different background and different thinking BUT with the SAME OBJECTIVES.

Thanks Keigo, Jeremy and Theresa for the company to Beach Rd.

I believe we got even closer after the INTENSIVE MSNing after the return from Bintan. Not forgetting the Sentosa gathering where all of you wanted to make me STRIP!

And thanks J,K and S for the Steamboat dinner too.....

Thanks Daddy for the dinner that evening, at indo Restrauant. It must have burn a hole in your pocket!

Not forgetting that night of my annual camp daddy send over supper.... I was so touched!

All these concludes this statement:

"A friend in camp, is a friend for life."


Hope that our friendship will remain..... becoming stronger each time..... just like the Link that we made at boat quay. The bond that nobody can break, except by ourselves.

Last but not least, must thank Daddy aka boss aka Uncle Sanath, for giving me this opportunity to work in this TEAM and take part in this camp to share my experiences, inspire and influence and not forgetting for giving me an opportunity to LEARN.

Thanks daddy!

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

似曾相识

今天我开始我的这个学期的实习。。。

我的实习地方是残障人士福利协会 (Handicaps Welfare Association - HWA)。 抵达那里时, 我总有似曾相识的感觉。。。。。

原来, 在一年多前,我曾到过此地。当时,我与三五好友在此当过一天的义工。。。

今天,又重回来这里,不禁让我想起 OEPians.....

今天,很高兴的。。。。 我又碰见了她 。。。。几个月没见了。。。 她的情况好得多了。。。。

最开心的是, 我又可以学以致用了! 我说的可是手语喔 。。。。 =)

再续。。。。。。

Sunday, December 04, 2005

It is amazing how strangers became close friends

It is amazing how strangers became close friends who seems like we have known each other for a very very long time....

Daddy Sanath said so too....

It is true..... I wondered how we bonded that well..... really well .....

Sometimes even friends we have known for a year or two, even few years of friendship, the bond is really different from this..... this is kinda strange... but it happens......

Haha.... I think is the capacity to take JOKES and CRAPS la... haha.... cos we never got angry with each other for making jokes out of one another.....

Yeah..... let the spirit of the TEAM continues man....

In other news, I went for my JC class BBQ.... I am glad that they are all fine.... photo of class 02S25......