Letter to D02 Squad 2 .....

When I was looking for some stuff under my computer table, I came cross this letter that I wrote to D02 Squad 2..... almost 3 years back.......

Dear Squad 2,

Improvements are seen day by day from you all but maybe I would like to ask if everyone of you have put in your best? How many of you are ready to teach your cadets once you past out from this course? MAYBE you all would like to think about it! Do you wish to regret only when the course is over that you should have done this and that?

You all are just like a rubber band. You all can stretch to your limits. I believe you can! " Nothing is impossible with a willing heart!"

You all should tressure whatever time you all have now. LEARN as much as you can. You will no longer have the chance to march and jog as a squad once you pass out from this course. You will be alone then. It will be your chance like us, to guide and inspire your NCOs and cadets, just like us, guiding you all.

"LIFE IS LIKE A ROLLER COASTER. THERE ARE TIMES WHEN IT IS UP AND TIMES WHEN IT IS DOWN. YOU CAN DREAD ABOUT THE WHOLE JOURNEY OR ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF IT! THE CHOICE IS YOURS!"

"WHAT IS BITTER TO ENDURE, MAY BE SWEET TO REMEMBER!"

ATC is just around the corner. Are you all prepared for it? Do you all have the I in the PICARD? REMEMBER, it is always good to be prepared for an opportunity than to have no opportunity to be prepared for.

There's still alot for you all to learn. Even I'm still learning as well ...... End of this course is not the end of your CI Life but it's the starting!

" SHIPS IN HABOUR ARE SAFE BUT THAT'S NOT WHAT SHIPS ARE BUILD
FOR!"

As a CI, we should not constrain ourselves to just Drill and Campcraft. We should venture out and learn more things to teach our cadets. We should not just pass down the hard skills that NPCC cadets should have but the soft skills and moral values.

Though there are improvement made, you all still have long way to learn; more room for improvements.

" WHAT DOESN'T KILLS YOU MAKE YOU STRONGER!"

Push yourself and others. At this point of time, instructors should not be the one to tell you what to do now.

" Give a man a fish, he can eat for a day. TEACH A MAN TO FISH, he can eat for a lifetime."

This is what I wish to see at the end of the course.

(end of letter)

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Sometimes, when I think back, I really enjoy being an CI Course Instructor, not so much for it's prestige but because I grew as a person. Though till now, I still do not know why I was chosen to be 1, back in June 2001 ......

But to think about it, I have learnt alot of things that I wouldn't have learnt if wasn't given such an opportunity.

The first course (J01) was one of the most memorable course for that was the time when I had to juggle between my school work and going down to HQ for IPCs....... Still remember how past IPCs were conducted .... though there may be lotsa firing and shooting, I guess it really prepare us for the course and make us think...... There are really "lots of ups and downs"..... Still remember that there were 4 "female newbies" - namely LK,SE,M and me...... and worse till, all of us were JC students ..... I will never forget how we "bia" cab to HQ everyday after school ...... * wonder how is everyone now?*

The next memorable one is of course being D02 Squad 2 instructor...... Seeing how some trainees who do not know alot of hard skills to one at least equipped with the necessary skills to be a CI as well as seeing one who lacks the confidence to one who is able to speak and teach in front of a squad..... And to see some of them who do well as CIs and recognize by most.....

All these memories will definately stay with me for life ...... If I were to choose again, I will still choose the same path, whether it will change my life in JC from 3 yrs to 2 yrs...... Cause, the things that I have learnt and gone through as well as friends that I have made, is far more valuable that that 1 year that I have to repeat in JC.....

Anyway, the friends that I have made in my 2nd JC 1 year are those who made me really enjoy my life in JC.... cause all of you all are a wonderful bunch of people, not forgetting having such great CT......

Wait.... why am I reminiscing??? Isn't that only for elderlys?? Haha... well... sometimes is is good to look back at the fond memories..... something that helps me to move forward in my life ......

That's all folks! Me have to get back to my studies liao.... ;-)

Self - maintenece Revisions.....

Just revised for my self-maintenece exam...... 1/2 way more to go.......

Was revising at airport just now with S ..... saw J and J.....

Just now at the airport, I wasn't productive at all (I mean studying, nothing else).....

I was so tired.... dunno why..... fell asleep few times while trying to read the notes.....
when I came back, I slacked awhile before my dinner..... after dinner, I fell asleep at the sofa!!!!
guess it was PMS - Post meal syndrome .......
Luckily my brother came back at 11.30pm.... it was then I realised that I should have started my revision..... and well, I did after my bath..... so I revised till now..... so as a reward for me.... to blog... haha.... guess I am only productive (ya.... I mean studying.. k...) at night.... 在夜深人静的时候。。。

Well, back to the airport..... we were counting the percentage of this paper..... only to realize that the 120mins paper is only 20% of our HO module..... and that means every mark we scored, it is only 1/6 mark.......

Haiz.. what to do? got to go and sleep liao... and continue the battle later..... hopefully I can wake up on time.... been oversleeping the past few days...... just hope I don't oversleep on the exam day itself....

Night all.... take care!

1st Paper

Today had my first paper..... it was totally disaster.....
The CVA patient that I wrote in my essay has 3 lesions at the arteries..... I really dunno what I am writing... haiz....
My MCQs screwed up as well.... was "di-gum-ing" most of the time.....
This is the first time me so unsure of myself.... haiz... I really need to pass this in order to pass overall.... I didn't do very well in my ICA and Practical the last time either..... hopefully..... they will moderate the passing mark.....

In other news, I check my mobility practical result...... quite happy with it.... cos I got a B!!!
Something to cheer me up at the end of the day I guess.....

So far so good....

Finally mobility was over......

I don't think I will flunk this practical, it's a matter whether I can do well or not, which is something I am not very confident of.

But as compared to palpation practical, I think I have more confidence in mobility....

But well, I don't dare to hope for high grades, as the saying goes,
" 期望越高，失望越大。”

25 minutes practical, I took 19 minutes with a "re-do" of a station....

none of the floor-to-wheelchair-to-floor transfer came out for me.....

I have lift transfer and transfer board transfer for a C7 spinal cord patient....... and NDT transfer and from sitting to standing for a right flaccid patient......

The "patient" is really a "good" patient .....

But luckily the "C7 spinal cord patient" can extend her arms to support herself when she is falling back.... then I say, "use yr hands to support yrself okay?" Laugh....
Then I try to support her......

There was once, I can't remember which one, the "patient" feet cannot touch the floor.... and I didn't realize.... but luckily before I transfer her, I shift her out....

I think my transfer board one not very good... cos I cannot push the board to under her butt.... but still managed to push her onto the bed.... ya.... that is when she use her hands to support herself.... haiz... the bed was abit too high... thus the board was a bit too slanted for her....

But, still quite okay I think....

But things wasn't that well in the morning and the day before......

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I had diarrhea 5 times since yesterday..... this is 1st time in my whole life that I am worried for my practical exam..... perhaps is because I am worried that I will do badly despite my preparation.....

And well, I have a nightmare... or shall I say DAYMARE..... cos it was in the morning when I dreamt of it.... here it goes:

I dreamt that I was studying somewhere, which looks like a food court to me..... and suddenly realize that my practical may start soon and look at my watch and I found that it was already 6+pm!!!!! (my practical exam is at 5pm....)

Gosh.... and when I tried to contact my lecturers, my phone dropped!!!

And when I was able to contact my lecturer-supposed-to-be, it turned out that I am contacting my JC CT tutor!!!! (i was like... huH??)

And I ask my tutor to ask my assessor if I can take the exam..... and the assessor turned out to be my JC computing science teachers!!!!

What a werid dream..... thus keep me awake will the end of my prac exam.....

Back to reality....

When it was about time for me to read my qn, HB came ......

He was saying, " Last person?"

I was like, "ya..."

Of course I am the last person la.... last day liao leh... haha....

then end of the practical, HL(the "patient") put my rough paper on his table.....

I was thinking.... maybe I should throw my rubbish away... then I ask HB,

" need me to throw it away??"

HB was like,"no need.... I want to keep....."

I was like....... Lolz....

Horoscope of 26 October

The Bottom Line

"Your luck is changing -- if it's been hot, expect some setbacks. If not, get ready!"

In Detail

"Monotony, habit or anything that even remotely resembles routine will be absolutely intolerable to you now -- so intolerable that you'll take chances and
risks, regardless of how iffy the odds are, just to do something new and
different. Oddly enough, it's a memory from the past -- one that reminds you of
how refreshing, exciting and spontaneous it was to do exactly what you wanted,
regardless of the aftermath -- that will most likely inspire you to do all this.
Go figure."

These 2 days horoscope seems so true.....

Horoscope of the day

Taken from Friendster's horoscope:

The Bottom Line

"Travel's on your mind -- when are you taking a vacation? Start
planning one now."

In Detail

"Two things are motivating you right now: tending to the affairs and problems of someone you love who apparently needs instruction on the subject and planning your escape route once that's over. The escape route is what's getting you through the reality of this currently all too realistic situation, so hang onto it. If anyone knows how important it is to have an appealing carrot at the end of a stick, it's you."

Hmm... I guess it is not so much of affairs... but exams... ;-P

And well..... I'm really looking forward for a vacation!!!

Admiration and respect for Dr William Tan

If you guys didn't know, Dr William Tan helps to raise funds for the cancer patients by wheeling for 48 hours continously ..... for details, pls refer to here

If you guys had tried wheeling yourselves in a wheelchair, which most don't I'm sure...

It is very tiring to even wheel yourself for 1/2 hr continously.... what's more to say when Dr William Tan had to wheel for 48hrs continously??

It is very admirable to see him pushing his physical limits for charity .....

From here, we can see that his disability did not discourage him from doing what an abled people can do (e.g. finishing his secondary and pre-university education..... participating in sports.... doing his part in charity...)

Dr William Tan even continues on to futher his studies in Harvard and Oxford University, and became a First Class Honours degree holder in Physiology, which is something that even abled- people like us are unable to accomplish....

Dr William Tan is one with outstanging strength and perseverance, a good role model for all to follow....

For more info on Dr William Tan, pls refer to here.

Life? No Life?

Where is the life that I used to live ......

I missed the times when I go out with friends for coffees ....

I missed the times when we had gatherings .....

I missed the times when I was busy with NPCC ....

I missed the times when I was always involved in camps .....

I missed the times .......

Now,

I am always burying myself in tons and tons of assignments and projects .....

Now that exams are near, the more I missed my life .....

I shall get back my life once exams are over .....

Though it will only be a month before I starts to bury myself in school work again....

Not that I don't enjoy school, actually I do, I really do.... but sometimes it is just tiring, seeing the amount of effort and time that we put in ..... and the results is too insignificant ....

But I guess the only time when we see our efforts are all that worth it is when we are at clinicals.....
Seeing the smiles on those patients, it really makes our day and forget all our tiredness....

Guess I am really looking forward for clinicals....

But before that, I am really looking forward to meet up with my friends .....

And of course, enjoy the nature .............

Dante's Inferno Test - You Have Been Judged

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Personality Disorder Quiz....

Something for the OT students to de-stress.... which may stress you even more.... causes it is related to abnormal psychology!!! LOlz....

Please remember to read the following clause before you attempt the quiz.....

Please remember that this test isn't meant to diagnose you. Only a professional can do that. Below are your test results, broken down for the ten different personality disorders. You are rated "low," "moderate," "high," or "very high" probability for each disorder. Low or moderate ratings mean that you are unlikely to have the disorder. High or very high means you are more likely to have the disorder. Only a professional can diagnose a disorder, however. Scroll down past the results for recommended books that might help you.

My Results: (seems like I have OCD,schizo,histrionic and narcissistic... )

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Low
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Low
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info --

Mirror, mirror on the floor

I accidently dropped my mirror on the floor....
thank god it is not broken....
if not, I think I will be unlucky for 5 yrs.....

对象

在一个星期前，我与ＨＨ聊天，不知不觉谈到了对象　。。。

我想这也是成长过程的一部分吧（虽然我们也应该算已经长大了吧。可是不管你是老是少，你不也是随着时间的流失而成长，变得成熟的多。）

想起我们在学校上的创意课，我们创造出来的故事也都是环绕着男欢女爱的爱情故事。每个故事中都带有童话故事里那 ‘两个相恋的情人到最后都能忠诚卷属、开花结果’。

回到主题－《对象》。。。。

我跟ＨＨ说，我的对象必须喜欢华语、喜欢华文　。。。
这可能是因为我对华人的传统与习俗等有浓厚的兴趣吧。。。。

华文华语也是我从小学开始就有浓厚兴趣的一个科目　。。。

更何况我也不想二十四小时都用英语来沟通　。。。

华人华语　。。。

Revision, revision not

Written Exams are just around the corner, 5 days to be exact.....
and wth am I still here???

Been too burnt out with biomech prac and Stupid-ROBERT 2000 Words Case study....

Feeling very tired to start to revise on anything.... haiz....

mobility prac on wed..... AND-I-AM-THE-LAST-PERSON-AGAIN!!!!

modules to study for written exams: Physiology, self-maintenence, biomech, intro to mental health, PPR, Abnormal psycho, Behavior modification..... 7 modules ---- 4 days......

worse still, 3 modules for 1 paper... haiz....

As I am typing this.... my eyelids are dropping.....

I guess it all lies with the mindset.... I AM NOT TIRED!!!