Roles and responsibilities

Sometimes I always wonder.... why do I put myself into all these kind of shits roles and responsibilities.....

WHY!?!?!

Seems like I got lotsa of things at hand now.... NYPNPCC club.... minutes.... Youth Camp....

Why I can't just let go of things and let it be...

Why must I tire mysef with all this matters....

Can I ever be follower and not be a leader/ facilitator?

I have been doing alot of leader roles these few weeks....
I am tired for now.... really really tired....

I am a human being... I do get tired... Sometimes I just want to stop doing anything...
But.... I still have to get back to reality....

It is me... and just me....