Roller Coaster Rides

Last night I dreamt of taking roller coaster rides again.

Perhaps this is a depiction of the things that are going on in my life. The ups and downs that are happening.

Hopefully, I will turn out to be stronger after each and every incident.

What doesn't kills me makes me stronger.

P.S: Going to visit dad again. He has been transferred to a normal ward yesterday afternoon. This morning he is allowed semi-solid food by mouth. He hasn't be given any food or drink since Thursday. But while I was on my way back after my morning visit, the ward called me and told me that dad will be transferring to isolation ward as they need to isolate him as he has been coughing and that to test his mucus for infection and TB. Hope things get better.

A&E and High Dependency Ward

Yesterday 11plus at night, Dad complained of blood in stool and shortness of breathe (SOB). He was so lethargic. I called and booked a cab to send him to CGH A&E. When we reached A&E, it's about past midnight.

I quickly go and register him. Luckily, we did not need to wait as his was emergency case and he was pushed in to see the doctor immediately.

I was shocked to see his vital signs. His heart rate was 140+ and his BP was 70+/40+. His SpO2 (amount of oxygen in his blood) was also low. Thank God we sent him in early. I cannot imagine if what could have happened if we sent him much later.

After consultation, he was pushed to another room for further assessments. Doctor came in and out about 2 times, updating his status. He was given 2 packet of blood for transfusion due to lost of too much blood which resulted to his low BP and hemoglobin. A&E Doctor reported that he needs to be warded and may be having HEART FAILURE. The 2nd time he came out, he said that the specialist (gastro) on-call doctor will be coming down to see him. After that,  the staff nurse came out and asked me to do the administration for dad's admission.

She said that dad has to be admitted to high dependency ward for close monitoring.

Soon after, he was pushed up to the ward and my mom and I followed shortly via the visitor lift. The nurses and doctor was preparing him into the high dependency ward.

The doctor updated his status. He reported that dad's BP was still consider very low and was consider critically ill or sick. He even asked us to prepare for the worse. When hearing this, my heart sank but still remain calm and hopeful.

He then said that he has KIDNEY FAILURE. But yet when I asked if my dad can pass urine on his own and stuff, he said can. Sigh.

When we left A&E, it was already 5 plus in the morning.

 When I reached home, I quickly grab a nap and woke up at 8+am to sms Sunita to tell her that I would be taking dependent leave. And to cancel all my therapy sessions with the pre-schools. I also messaged my brother to tell him about dad.

P.S: I also smsed someone who I thought will show some concern but he didn't reply.
Edited: I wonder if he is in Singapore or whether he has received my sms. Maybe he is still angry. But I'm tired already. Too many things happening. Do whatever you want.

Some of my Favourite Quotes Shared on FB

 

 I'm guilty of it =X

How old is your daughter now?

Today had a short chat with an ex-client (boy)'s mum. Her daughter (client's sister) has grown so much since the last time I saw her.

While chatting, she asked me,

"How old is your daughter now?"

Laugh. I was amused by it and told her I'm not married yet. She was surprised and told me that she thought someone told her I have a daughter.

Do I looked like I have one?

Bleeding Love

I was staying over at Juat's place last night with Sunita. This morning on AXN Channel, we were watching The Voice 2.

In the show, there were these 2 people and they sang Bleeding Love. This song somehow reminded me of you, the one who introduced the song to me 4 years back.

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Everest Base Camp Postponed

My dream of going for a trek at the Himalayas is being postponed.

 (photo taken from here)

No more going for my trek in October. It is postponed till next year April.

Meanwhile, I seriously needs a holiday! Anyone wants to go for a holiday between May-July?

P.S: I seriously need to start to train for my 10km. It has been too long since I last jogged.

Office Calendar

22th March. 

A day that I'll never forget even if there's no Facebook to remind me.

4 years and going

The time past too fast for me to realize that we have known each other for at least 4 years.

当年的这个时候，你还在印度航海呢。

So many things had happened over these 4 years, both good and bad.

可是我从来都未曾后悔过。

It is still a blessing and happiness to have know you.

虽然今天对你来说可能和平日没什么两样。

But I want to praise the lord and thank buddha for bringing you to this world and your parents for giving birth to you on this special day.

 对我而言，你永远是那么特别的。

Apologies for the days when I turn to a deaf ear

让你生气了。

I will try to learn.... to let you be... and respect your decisions and not choose to do what I assume is good or right

我再也不会对你固执与倔强了。

I will also try to be less persistent in certain things too if that makes you happy.

生日快乐！

May you be blessed with many good returns, luck, success and happiness in everything in the years to come.

Makes my day

Yesterday, I got to join the morning crowd to squeeze in train. The train ride that day was horrible. It stopped in the between stations every 2-3 stations. You can almost hear people's footsteps when they tried to balance themselves while fighting inertia. The unlucky me got trampled on my left foot by a middle-aged Caucasian when she tried to balance herself. As a normal reaction to sudden pain, I screamed a little... OUCH. I think she was wearing heels or wedges. While at Aljunied station, I felt there was something sticky on my fitflop. To my dismay, my middle toe of my left foot was bleeding. The train was also too crowded for me to wipe away the blood. And I was only able to do so when I got myself a seat at Tanjong Pagar when most of the white collar people alighted.

Thank God my intervention at Jurong went well and makes my day better. It's nice when the kid enjoys my session and refuse to let me leave the place and said I could stay and sleep in school. He will sleep in school too. Laugh. The most important thing to note is that, he is a boy with behaviour issues. Being just a 5 year old boy, he can flip table in class but with me, he can be such a sweet little boy.

Amazing Nightview

It is so amazing how Singapore can have such nice scene at night.

And I thank God for the Canon Powershot S95 for taking such good shot.

Sharing 1 photo for the night before I goes to bed. Have to wake up early for my intervention at Jurong West. But I'm looking forward for the session as the boy is so adorable and he looks forward for my session, yet he is also a  “嘴硬心软” boy.

MBS

Thought of sharing another one:

The White Rain

(effect using lights)

The 2 photos are taken at the iLight Marina Bay 2012 when I went with Weiting and Zixian last Saturday. Will share more photos soon when I'm not so tired due to work.

P.S: Hope that your work is getting better for you. Update me okay? And whether if you are still going to France and when. 2 more days to your ... ...

Bad Cough

I am coughing so hard that I feel that I can cough out my diaphragm. This is getting worse when the sun sets and night fall.

Gonna have terrible night and sleep again tonight.

But this is not as bad as someone ignoring me. Sigh.

Accident

My dad met with a road accident last Tuesday. Thank god he only suffered minor injuries. No external bleeding or require any operation.

Thank God that I picked up that unfamiliar number on my phone. I usually don't. But somehow I did. I was shocked when I heard that the call was made from NUH. But I remained very calm. VERY. Even I can't believe myself.

I was contemplating whether to call my mother yet or to wait till everything has been settled. In the end, I did. And I asked her to go home first and I will meet her at home and go to NUH together.

Dad was at the A&E and I managed to speak to the emergency doctor who attended to my dad. He said my dad had 2 ribs fracture, some air spaces in his lungs and abit of abrasion, and alittle concussion as he cannot remembered what happened. He was later warded for a day for observation and discharged the following day.

For this incident, other than my colleagues who were present when I received the call, the only person who knew about this was Mr Vorhees.

Somehow it felt comforting to share with him my anxiety. He is also the first person who comes to my mind after my family members.

From this accident, I somehow felt how fragile a life is and we should appreciate people that we love before we lose them. Tell them and appreciate them before it is too late.

Because of this sudden rush of feelings and thoughts, I again tumble down the blocks that I am building up and maintaining well the last 2 weeks. Again, I had made Mr Vorhees disappointed and annoyed with my actions of "deafness" and insisted my way even he said 'no' already.  I am seriously sorry for my inconsideration. You know I don't mean not to listen to you. Just that my heart took over my head(including my ears).

Sigh. I am seriously hopeless in this area of life.

P.S: Mr Vorhees, if you are reading this, I'm regretting it and this I promise will be the LAST time.

原来是美男

Every Saturday, if I'm not out with the buddies or playing DGN with Mr Vorhees, I will catch the show 原来是美男 or otherwise known as He's Beautiful in English. This is actually a Korean show to be exact.

A.N Jell is Korea's most popular pop idol group. Through auditions, the company's CEO recruits flower boy Go Mi Nam for his angelic voice into the group for the recording of the new album. Unfortunately, Mi Nam needs to be hospitalized because of an injury. Desperate, his manager seeks his naïve and sweet twin sister Go Mi Nyu and begs her to disguise as her brother until he recovers. For the sake of fulfilling his twin brother's dream of find their biological mother, she accepts the proposal.

Despite her misgivings, nobody in the group realizes that she is a actually a girl. Till one day, her secret is discovered but it is too late to take Mi Nyu out of the group. All three boys in the group, Tae Kyung, Jeremy and Shin Woo decide to work harder to protect her. In order to take the attention away from Mi-Nyu, a scandal between group leader, Tae-Kyung and famous actress Yoo He-yi is fabricated. Soon, He-yi realizes the truth about Mi Nyu and by the time, she realizes she likes Tae Kyung very much.

Although Tae Kyung started out disliking the trouble-making Mi Nyu, they slowly develop a friendly and close relationship. Meanwhile, as Tae Kyung helps to get Mi Nyu closer to her idol Shin Woo, he starts to find himself strangely bothered by the two...

The above synopsis is extracted from Channel U.

In the story, the leader of the band 泰京 is an eccentric, indifferent and stubborn guy while Shin Woo 新禹 on the other hand is the boy-next-door guy that all girls would love.

But somehow I like and adore 泰京 more than 新禹. This is not only because escentric, indifferent and stubborn guy attracts me but also I see the kind and understanding part of him which other people fails to see. 泰京 is just showing his care and concern in his own way. And can be very sweet at times. But I got to say sometimes he is so attitude that I feel like punching him...  (laugh)

By looking at their photos, who would you like more?

泰京

 or

新禹

I think I like 泰京 more is also because he is more manly than others.

Today, there was a scene that 泰京 got so sad and angry that 美男 rated him with an average score of 5 out of 10 for some questions about him. But he became so happy when he asked how much he like him (she does not know that it was him who asked her) and she said 100!!!

 Btw, the bunny that he is holding is a bunny with pig nose!!

That's the pig-bunny!

In the story, the girl above likes 泰京 . Often than not, he always find her irritating and always tries to oppose her. But slowly, he realizes that he has fallen for her too.

The above is the scene where he said this to her:

"I give you permission to like me!"

But he didn't tell her that he likes/love her too. Rather because of his guy's EGO, he said she can be like the fans in his fan club where she can adore him and not because she really likes him in a relationship kind.


Anyway I am looking forward to the next few episodes. But I think I may just go search online and watch the whole series as I'm very interested to see what will happen to them in the end.

More of  泰京 photos:

I like man's serious look when they are working

His eccentric look

I just love his smile!

His sarcastic and attitude look

His angry and jealous look

I like this animated picture alot!!

That's all for now. I guess I'm gonna watch the rest of the episodes from youku.com here =)

Can't wait!!!

P.S: I think I tends to fall for guys who are like 泰京.

Acknowledgement:

Most of the photos were taken from here.

Animated pic taken from here.