Existence of GOD

Today, while talking to a parent whose child is being seen by my colleague, she mentioned this:

"God Won't Put More on You than You can Bear"

She was just sharing how difficult it was to bring up a child with special needs. Indeed it must have been tough for her. She also shared that, GOD must have know that she can do it when she herself thinks she can't. 

Though I am not a Christian but a Free Thinker, I do enjoy spiritual discussions at times. To me, each of his own. All of us have different beliefs on WHO and WHAT is GOD. To Buddhists, buddha is their god. To Christians, Jesus is their GOD. To Muslims, Allah is their God. To me, GOD is GOD. It can be any GOD in any religion. What I seek is the teachings and sayings of most of these religion. Of course I won't say there is no GOD. I'm grown up in a family where I used to go to mediums with my mother and I enjoyed it. Now that I am older, I have and can decide on my own faith.

Declaring myself as a Free Thinker doesn't mean that I didn't want to choose "Taoism" as my religion because it was no good. Rather what I seek is all the teachings and sayings in many religions. Thus, being a Free Thinker doesn't make me to be labelled as "betrayal" of faith if I believe in certain teachings in another religion.

Having said that, it brings me to another point. Is there really GOD in existence? I don't know. I have not seen one, therefore I cannot comment much. Or are we really our own GOD? 

Often, when we faced with obstacles that we could not overcome, we seek GOD. Was it the teaching that we seek? Or is there really a GOD there to give you the answer? Or the answer has already been written down in the form of teachings for us to understand it? But was the saying written down by someone or really by GOD? GOD knows. 

See? When things that we have no answer to, we use "GOD knows". That seems like an avoidance way to answer questions that we have no answers to. It is because GOD will know all the answer?

(you know what I'm going to say........ God knows.)

Anyway, I was just google-ing away on the quote above and chance upon some forums where they say GOD will give you more than you can bear, so that you will SEEK him. Do GOD really guide you to what you should do or can do? Or is the GOD a medium/means to justify what you should do and subconsciously think what you should do?

So does that mean your sub-conscious is the GOD? Just that we need something or someone to "justify" it. Thus it is known as the GOD?

I was just reading a book borrowed from my colleague on "Opening the door of your heart", written by Ajahn Brahm, a buddhist monk born in the west but trained in the "Thai forest tradition".

There is this quote which says,

"Many people ask such questions knowing that what they do is wrong, but in the hope that some 'expert' will convince them it is right. Deep inside, most people know what's right and wrong - only some don't listen carefully."

The above can also be related to someone who has a questions to ask, which he already know the answer but hope that someone will convince them otherwise or to further "justify" to support him.

What do you think? Ponder for a while..... 

I will be back! (to be continued...... )

 

Last module to go

Finally I am left with one last battle - one last module to go: Neuro rehab

Last week, I've gotten back my Cognitive and Perceptual Assignment. We passed but we didn't score as well as we thought we could.

Still praying hard for my health promotion project assignment marks.

As for my paeds module, I can only say I can only blame myself. I didn't manage to post 2 discussions and 10 marks has been deducted. I tried to draft the last discussion's answer last night but was too tired to continue and post. Thus, I went to sleep and wanted to wake up to continue today. But to my dismay, the discussion was LOCKED. There goes my As and distinction I suppose. This is the only module that I can score, yet, I destroy it myself.

Now, left with this neuro rehab. But there is so much work to do in this module. Endless readings.... endless posting of comments.... and endless interventions to plan....


I guess the only motivation now is, I will have my freedom soon ... ..... and perhaps that monetary incentives? But then, what is the 50 -100 increment as compared to my AUD$ 18 000 spent on this degree?

I guess, maybe end of the day, I still gain that knowledge afterall. *Think Positively*

Day 32 no more

There will be no more Day 32 of waiting.....

It's Day 1 of happiness and contentment. =)

Thank you.

And whatever it is, thank GOD (since I'm a free thinker, I'm gonna thanks all the GODs there are in this world....)

I'll be grateful for it.

I think I saw the rainbow!!!!

I guess I'm gonna have a good sleep later.  *wink*

Updates for the last 3 weeks

Good day! Day 28.....

I've been rather busy with studies. Complete a health promotion critque on 26 Sept and EMBARK on another health promo project on that day. Only managed to submit on 17 Oct 4+am. The deadline was supposed to be on 11 Oct but realised that we were on the wrong track at the 11th hour and met up on 10th Oct at Paya Lebar SingPost after work. With the kind understanding of the lecturer, we were managed to extend it to a later date. On 10 Oct, while trying to struggle to complete the 2nd health promotion assignment, we gotten back the marks for our 1st assignment. We just barely make the marks. Sigh. This has in one way or another affected me for the 2nd assignment for this module. But well, we still got to carry on right? Ya.... so that week was a disaster.

In addition, we had so many online discussions to do which constituents 20% for health promotion and 25% for paeds modules. And the thing about such discussion is that, we cannot just post our views. We need to BACKUP with evidence from literature journals and books. This means we need TIME to do RESEARCH. With the health promo project in mind, how to do? And I have to be penalised for 5% of my paeds module for not posting for 1 of the discussions. And now? I am busy with my paeds module project, which supposed to be dued on monday, yesterday, which I only started on Sat. Sigh. Thank god I'm not the only one that is not able to submit by this date, thus we were allowed to submit lastest by next mon. My project is around 80% completed. Just need to type in abit more info and put in pictures/photos. That's why I can take a breather to blog here for a while.

Want to hear more? I am doing ANOTHER module - Neurological Rehabilitation and we got to do weekly discussions too. Sigh. SOOOO many things, how I wish I had more time. Thank god neuro rehab module's assignment only due on 23 Nov. But well.. this assignment requires lots of reading. AT LEAST reading up on 10 literature articles. Sigh. I'm not here to complain but I'm just trying to relate what has happened to me for the past weeks.

On the other hand, thank GOD I decided to take leave. Although I took leave because I thought my Paeds and health promotion module will finish on time, so that I can rest, even doing nothing at home. Apparently, I even thought of going to HK for a short holiday. Luckily it did not happen. Or maybe it should. Maybe if I had booked the tickets, I might have finished my assignments earlier, just like my last year BKK trip. =)

Thank god after this paeds assignment, I only left with 1 more online discussion for this module. Then I will just left with my neuro rehab module. I just got to pray hard for my health promo 2nd assignments to be good or even excellent, so that I would be able to get least do well for this module, taking into consideration that my online discussion may just pass or even fail ( x cross my fingers) as I think I didn't post enough and my barely past assignment 1.

Well, after that "dramatic" scene of lecturer didn't receive me and my friend assignment for my cognitive module, we have not heard from her since then. Not sure how we fare in that particular assignment.

So that's all about studies... ...


Social life? Not much of a social life for me, except that I had a gathering with my buddies gang on 10 Oct because it was sZ BELATED bday. I don't even remember if not for aZ.... haha... EVEN aZ doesn't remember too if not for Nini.... LOLx....  sorry ah... I only remember someone else bday... lolx...=X something.... 22... something March... =X

Yeah. So they went to "Fish Market" for dinner. For a moment I thought they were at a MARKET! Just like Lau Pat Sat that type.... So I asked again where it was. And as you know, I'm a TOWN IDIOT. I have no idea where orchard and douby gaut was in relation to somersat. I was at Orchard Central BTW. So I walked and walked. Only to realise that I am walking towards orchard when I supposed to meet the guys at Douby Gaut. Then I got to walk back and took the train. Ya... laugh all you want la... =P

So when I reached, the guys almost finished their food. wC brought along his gf too. hC, aZ and of course the bday boy sZ was there.

And this is the food that I ordered, with recommendation from our chef sZ:

I couldn't finish this because the fishes were quite big pieces and that I had 4 pieces instead of the usual 3.

After that, wC went off with his gf and left me and the rest. We went into some figurines shop in Plaza Singapura. And while looking around, I caught sight on some of the figurines that SY keeps. There is quite alot of them in 2-3 shops at that level. As we didn't get sZ a present, the guys decided to get him one while he went in to look at the figurines. For me, I caught sight of a figurine that I quite like and it is:

I like this because this is the only game that I managed to complete in PS1 during my A level time. I like him because he looks macho, smart looking and cute in FF9.

Other than that, I like Garnet and Vivi too.

Garnet

 Vivi

As I don't really like FF8 character, so I didn't play that on the PS1.

The reason why I like the dragonica game now is also because it is more "magicial" and more animation, "cute cute" type, rather than those bloody type. I can play those bloody type but not for long. Sigh. But now no time to play. Maybe after I complete my assignment. Someone was saying I will take YEARS to complete.... Maybe.

After that they decided to go to Plasma KTV. When we reached there, apparently we were the 1st group as we were early (9+pm). Didn't know that sZ is a regular there. The guys were there before too. So played many many rounds of dices game and losser got to drink. Haha... the guys were "afraid" that I get drunk cause I just "dare" to open the cover even though the risks are high. Hmm... I didn't really get drunk before cause usually I don't drink. The only time that I vomitted was when I was out with my squadmates during CNY period. I think when I'm drunk, I wouldn't laugh like some girls do, I won't blabber like some people do. I think I will just fall asleep. It almost happened during that CNY period. But after that throwing up, I was more or less awake because I will never let my guards down. Maybe that is the reason why I only go drinking with my very closed friends.

And the WORST thing to happen is sZ DROP my LAPTOP!!!! ARGH.....

Anyway, this is the picture of the group (me-hC-aZ-sZ):

Friendship since 2001

8 years of friendship!

Sister and Brothers!

(But did I hear u all say Brother and dog?)

(WTH.... lolx)

sZ was "fed" with lotsa drinks from the lady boss that night. That night he was suppose to finish like 10 sec of hard liquor? Now I can't imagine how SY tried to drink so much of alcohol during the anniversary of the ship and his incek retirement/resignation. Anyway, we left the place close to 1+am or was it 2+? And aZ, thanks for asking how am I and how I'm doing. Although I didn't reply much to what you've asked but thanks for asking. =)

Before that Sat, on Thurs was the meetup with Dr Tan, Singfor, Alex and hamster!!!

We decided to be the "Steering committee" and hopefully to resuscitate the Overseas Expedition Project that we went in 2004. It was a nice catching up with all. Have not seen most of them since 2007.

The gals:

Sorry that it's abit dark

Anyway I had slightly new hairstyle. I pin my fringe up. And I think it makes me look "Brighter" and more "alert" but it makes me look like a shih tsu. =X

I guess that's about all?

And of course I'm still waiting..... waiting for something to happen. Will it? Even if I can't convince you?

Happy Together - The Turtles

I saw someone's blog asking about a song with the lyrics "you and me...... me and you" ...
Then thought of google-ing it and found this song.  Not sure if that is what that blogger wanted... but I love this song nevertheless!

Imagine me and you, I do
  I think about you day and night, it's only right
  To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
  So happy together

  If I should call you up, invest a dime
  And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
  Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
  So happy together

    I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
    For all my life
    When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
    For all my life

  Me and you and you and me
  No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
  The only one for me is you, and you for me
  So happy together

    I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
    For all my life
    When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
    For all my life

  Me and you and you and me
  No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
  The only one for me is you, and you for me
  So happy together

  Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba
  Ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba

  Me and you and you and me
  No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
  The only one for me is you, and you for me
  So happy together

  So happy together
  How is the weather
  So happy together
  We're happy together
  So happy together
  Happy together
  So happy together
  So happy together (ba-ba-ba-ba ba-ba-ba-ba)

雨后总会天晴。彩虹也会出来。

Group photo at Karen's and Derek's Wedding

Group photo at Karen's and Derek's Wedding

 

 

Damn sucky

This is a damn sucky feeling to know that I have 3 written assignments (health promo - 3000 words, pediatrics-3000 words?, neuro rehab - review journals!!!) and endless online dicussions to do and yet I'm feeling sick and lethargy due to my body fighting the flu virus and my inner self trying to sort out some personal issues. I wonder if I really looked or sound that sick as all parents of the children that I saw today all asked if I am unwell. Probably I sounded like a toad with my nasal voice.

Appraisal is coming I suppose and I have some KPI(key point indicators) that are yet to be followed up. Have to come up with some handwriting guildlines with fellow peds OTs  with the draft by Nov and also will be giving a caregiver training with my colleague in Novemember.

Going for a 5 days long course in mid-Nov too. Another 3 days course in Dec before my bday. 3 days class just after my bday. Just looking forward for my 3 days leave in Oct and 13 days in dec. This year has been a rough year - waves? Tsunami? Roller Coaster? Sigh. I guess it's all the above. But I don't deny there are some things to be happy about too.

Hypocrite

Definition:
1 : a person who puts on a false appearance of virtue or religion
2 : a person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings
(http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/hypocrite)


What exactly is it? I just don't get it. And it has been in my mind for 10 days.

Yet another wedding: Karen and Derek

I attended another wedding last Sunday at Orchard Hotel. It's Karen's and Derek's wedding.


I just got to know them through YEC. They joined YEC for the coming term. Derek is born in 1979 and he is 7 years older than Karen. That means Karen is younger than me. Hmm.... 1979.... so reminded me of someone.

Anyway, the following are some photos taken on that day. Some photos of the food, some photos of myself and wendy. I don't have the group photos yet. How can my pathetic SE G900 be compared to a DSLR?

Me and Wendy in the Ladies

Another one

My front view of my arms looks huge.
Dammit. lolx.

Table 15.

Gift from Orchard Hotel

I took this instead of the apple above.

Candles and petals

Another one

Deco

Menu

Front of the menu

My Red Wine

Me

My Chinese Tea

Deco in the cold dish

Sharks Fin

Yesh. You've guess it. =X

Another dish

Karen and Derek back from a change of wedding gown

Outside the Hotel while waiting for Cab

Back at home
I like this pic! Because can see the contour of my arm muscles! =P

Another one

Another one

I know I'm photo whore. But it doesn't matter. Cause I like to take photos and take photos of myself.

Juat was suggesting that I should go and take some photo shoots now since I'm more on my slimer side now. Considering.....

Anyway, Congrats to Karen and Derek! May you have a blissful marriage!

P.S: I used to love to attend weddings when I was young because there is food. Now that I'm getting older .... ..... (please fill in the answer......)

Well, have another wedding coming. That is zJ, my super glue sister's wedding. In Dec.

One of the most accurate FB Quiz

Who are you on the inside?
Result says : Hidden LOVE.

You long to let the world know you love this person. But perhaps at times, you or this person seem distant or seem to be holding back. Maybe one of you are s...till hurting from a past relationship? Or maybe it's the fact of certain family and friends being biased to your relationship? Sometimes the strain of everyday life can take the novelty out of the relationship, and you long for that feeling of newness again? Anyways, if you both love each other so much, then any obstacle you face will only make your bond stronger. .

Old FB message

I was just taking random look into my past FB messages and I came across this quote:

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over. We just have to trust and hope for the best."

I was browsing through some past messages and everything is coming back again.

And of course this 3 posters that I've done up and sent to you last year when you were away (while I went to the Zoo and took photos of the penguins):

"You never know what is their real intention and thinking. We just have to trust and hope for the best."

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;

- William Shakespeare

Shopping Spree

My bed finally has a bedsheet after few months.

I thought my bed is king size. Apparently, it is queen size. Therefore, the bedsheet is slightly bigger. But never mind. It can be stuffed under the bed. This set also has a quilt cover that comes with it. Maybe one day I'll pop by Ikea to get a quilt. Now, I just make do with my old single size quilt that I put inside this quilt cover. =P

As tomorrow I am going to attend a wedding dinner, I bought some new make-up set as the ones that I bought 2 years ago are too dark for my skin now. This former tanned girl has become fairer (though still quite dark compared to other gals). The make up set are from The Face Shop.

All my purchase with free shampoo and conditioner

Make-up base

Concealer for my dark eye-rings

Make-up remover

2-way cake

All the above is how it looks like when it is still in the box. How about when it is "boxless"?

Here it is!!

Make-up base

Concealer

2 way cake

Make up remover

What a spree. Don't ask me how much I spent. It is alot. I doubt I'll go Hong Kong during my leave on 17 - 21 Oct. Maybe I'll just slack at home.... or maybe I'll go zoo.... or sentosa..... or go for my SPA! Nonetheless, I guess retail therapy helps alittle... though it burns my pocket too.

I just need a break.

P.S: Anyone wants to go for an overseas trip bet 14 dec to 25 dec? Phuket maybe? I want to go some relaxing place.....