God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. And ME to share all the pain, laughter, tears, sorrow,happiness, sun and rain with you! Let us endure all the 暴风雨 and 彩虹 together!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Ignoring and distracting

For the past few weeks, I have been adopting ignoring and distracting methods to settle certain issues... ...

I will ignore the issue.... because I just don't want to face the problem.... I distract myself by going out... going for jog.... and even trying or taking to friends about their problems.... so that I will ignore mine for the moment... ...

Just wonder how long more I am able to ignore and distract myself....

Why can't you see?

I'm bloody pissed off why can't you see?
Where is the sense of respect you ought to give?
A decision made by you, yet consequences borne by me
Where is the logic you tell me?

It is not just shifting things out and around
It is changing a lifestyle that was previously mine
But soon it will become out of bound
And possibly out of mind
Where is the respect when the decision was made?
Have you ask me what opinion I would take?

Simple respect you can't give
You can't blame me when you didn't receive
Why can't you see, why can't you see?
It is not a matter of object rearrangement
But rather a life of re-adjustment.

Less resistant I might be
If you have consider me
Consider my thoughts and feelings
It is not a decision that affect you only
But it also include yours truly.

Why can't you see, why can't you see?
It is not a matter of object rearrangement
But rather a life of re-adjustment.
A decision made by you, yet consequences borne by me
Where is the logic you tell me?
- Quek, 2007

Friday, September 21, 2007

What do we see?

I was very inspired by the following poem, whether as an individual or as an occupational therapist. How often have we "labeled" people as someone who cannot dress themselves.... someone who require assistance in their activities of daily living, or even someone who requires maids or nurses to feed them? And how often we see them as a mother, as a daughter or as a worker? Of course as an OT, we have taken the roles of our clients into consideration when we plan our treatment goals for our clients/patients. But what about the general public? What did we see when we see someone on a wheelchair? What did we see when we see someone who cannot talk? Do we see someone who cannot walk? Or do we see a mother on a wheelchair with her daughter? Do we see someone who cannot talk; or someone using sign language to talk?

What do we see? LOOK CLOSER .........

LOOK CLOSER


What do you see, nurses, what do you see?

Are you thinking, when looking at me,

A crabbit old woman, not very wise,

Uncertain of habit, with fair away eyes,

Who dribbles her food, and makes no reply,

When you say in a loud voice: ‘I do wish you’d try’,

Who seems not to notice the things that you do,

And forever is losing a stocking or shoes,

Who, quite unresisting, lets you do as you will

With bathing and feeding, the long day to fill?

Is that what you are thinking, is that what you see?

Then open your eyes, you’re not looking at me.


I’ll tell you who I am, as I sit here so still,

As I move at your bidding, as I eat at your will,

I’m a small child of ten, with a father and mother,

Brothers and sisters, who love one another,

A young girl of sixteen with wings on her feet,

Dreaming that soon a true love she’ll meet;

A bride now at twenty – my heart gives a leap,

Remembering the vows that I promised to keep;

At twenty five now I have young of my own,

Who need me to build a secure, happy home;

A woman of thirty, my young now grow fast,

Bound to each other with ties that should last;

At forty my young sons will soon all be gone,

But my man stays beside me to see I don’t mourn;

At fifty once more babies play round my knee;

Again we know children, my loved one and me.

Dark days are upon me, my husband is dead,

I look at the future, I shudder with dread,

For my young are all busy with young of their own,

And I think of the years and the love that I’ve known.

I’m an old woman now and the nature is cruel,

‘Tis her jest to make old age look a fool.

The body it crumbles, grace and vigour depart,

There now is a stone where I once had a heart.


But inside this old carcase a young girl still dwells,

And now and again my battered heart swells.

I remembered the joys, I remembered the pain,

And I’m loving and living life over again.


I think of the years, all too few – gone too fast,

And accept the stark fact that nothing can last,

So open your eyes, nurses, open and see,

Not a crabbit old woman, look closer – see ME.

- Anon

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Women's Wisdom Reading for Xiu Ling

Sun in Sagittarius:

Xiu Ling, you were born under the sign of Sagittarius and your ruling planet is Jupiter, the planet of expansion, joy and good fortune.

You are a very optimistic person, with a good disposition and a lot of enthusiasm. You like movement and this will lead you to participate in sports, to travel, or to maintain a very intense social life. You love freedom and hate daily routine. You love outdoor activities, contact with nature, and adventurous situations. You are very restless and curious, which will engender unexpected and risky situations. Thanks to your ingenuity and optimism you will always come out ahead, either by receiving unexpected help or by simply ignoring the problems around you.

You like to share your life and you are very generous with your resources. You desire knowledge and you will study, investigate, and exchange ideas with others. You find yourself very attracted to faraway lands and different cultures, and are always willing to travel and learn. You have a facility for communicating and learning languages, and your natural attractiveness will allow you to make friends easily. You will always have a childlike, naive and spontaneous attitude.


The above is very true isn't it? I love outdoor... nature... adventurous situations.... but why I am not doing them now?
I was thinking of giving myself 2 years to it.... but... will it be too late?

Ponder.....

Updates 2

31st August

Met up with some CIs.... Jeff, Murni, cH, sZ, Azman,etc. At first was thinking twice of meeting up. i was quite tired after work, as usual. But well, decided to go in the end. Hmm... as usual again, everyone was late.... has it become a trend already eh? Especially the organiser...

Usual hangout, went to coffee bean.... had a chat with them... or rather I was on the phone with "Maria".... a respite for both ourselves.... didn't know we chatted for so long.... about 1 hr!!! Seems like everyone is okay.... so far so good.... guess we will meet up pretty soon too... as wynne is getting married!!!! Feeling happy for her....


1st September

That day was my YEC BGM..... had a movie screening at century square. Almost full house. Some people 'fly aeroplane'... didn't come in the end...

But everything ended nicely.... even the positions were elected. As expected, I am the General Secretary for the current term YEC.

Suppose to go and celebrate Daddy Sanath's BD at his office.... was too tired and not feeling very well.... thus have to give it a miss.... haiz....


6th September

I went back to Tiong Bahru for meeting and it ended at 5 mins past 7. And after that, rush back to Tampines to meet Gary for a dinner.

Hmm.... we had a nice chat and dinner from 8.15 to close to 10pm. HAha... didn't know we can talk so much... seems like anything under the sun.....


Nothing much for the rest of the week.... but I am going on course on the 12th!!!! Looking forward for it! =)

Friday, September 07, 2007

Update 1

Sorry for my long absence. I realize I haven't been blogging for almost a month, which is a rare case for me. Guess work has taken most of my energy to blog. Or rather work has taken almost 70% of my waking hours and whatever happens in these 70% are to remind confidential. Thus I am only allowed to blog what happens outside the 70%, unless I blogged about what happens in my dream, which I always forget when I wake up.

Therefore, I am going to blog about what happens during the 30% of my waking hours as well as in the weekends. =)

22nd August
Finally I arranged for a dinner appointment with my friend after work. Even the Head of my Dept encourages me to go out. Haha... been going home everyday after work. =)

I met Jimmy for dinner. It was a long time since we have seen each other. We chatted during the dinner and it seems like we have all grow older and moved on. We no longer immerse ourselves in activities that we were passionate about when we were younger. Not that we were no longer passionate but rather we have to prioritize on what we want in life.

Like I always remember what Mr Seong says, "NPCC is just ultimately a CCA."

In another occasion (where we spend the whole day, for many days in HQ), he said, "You all spent all your time here, have you thought that what if one day you returns home and found that your loved ones are no longer there?"

I guess people moved on. Some still able to juggle and commit to what they believe in and have passion about. Maybe not for me at the moment. Let me juggle well with my work, friends, family and other commitments first.

But it was nice catching up with Jimmy. =) Seems like he had changed his hair colours.

26th August

Our H2O is back for the weekends to celebrate her mom's 60th birthday~~~~ "Happy Birthday Aunty!"

Here are some photos of our gathering......


The 2 August Babies..... Belated 23rd Birthday!


H2O with her favourite Lamb stew

How can I not take photo with our dearest H20? =)

Weiting, H20 and Serene

Us!!!! Too bad 'Maria' cannot join us.....


Hey...... this is also a gathering for the new graduated Occupational Therapists.....