Nobody's Child

In 2001, I got my O level result on my own. L1R4 - 9 points, L1R4 - 13 points.

In 2004, I got my A level results on my own, once again.

In 2004, I went for my longest overseas expedition trip, without my parents sending me off to the airport and nobody picked me up from the airport when I returned.

In 2005, I went on my longest overseas trip with my classmates for the first time without a teacher and I am off and back from the airport alone.

In 2007, I graduated from Diploma in Occupational Therapy and attended my graduation ceremony on my own.

In 2010, I am graduating with Bachelor of Occupational Therapy and once again, I'm a nobody's child. My parents are not going to be with me again. How nice.

That's the problem of being an independent person.

Happy Graduation to me tomorrow!

多三天。。。 。。。

这一天终于来临了。我将毕业于 La Trobe University 的 Bachelor Degree of Occupational Therapy. 我从小的愿望终于快要实现了。

我从小就不是出身于富贵之家。父母亲又没受过什么教育。母亲只念了五、六年书。连小六离校考试都没去考。父亲就不用说了。他没念什么书。最多只有三年级罢了。

由于有些亲戚的背景非常复杂，大多数的表哥、表姐们的教育水平也算底，有些亲戚每日只为了三餐温饱而担心，所以不知什么时候开始，我便发誓我一定要领取一个大学文凭光宗耀祖。让父母亲能在亲戚面前感到光荣。

处了以上的理由，我也希望能拖离贫困的生活 (我可没有和什么人提起过）。虽然我不能选择我的父母，可是让我庆幸的是我的父母亲是靠他们的劳力，脚踏实地的把我和哥哥养大。我父亲是靠做散工为生。而母亲是在咖啡店收洗碗筷。所以父母就是我们所为的 blue collar worker, 蓝领阶级。虽然我不能选择我的父母，但我能选择我以后要走的路。

我从理工学院开始，就得付自己的学费。每次好不容易在三天两夜的外展营当 instructor 赚来的及可怜的 $150 ，都得拿去交学费。还记得以前银行的存折从不多过五十元。还有每次当我要没钱时，我都会去买一个星期的粮食，然后每天早上一大清早，大概5、6 点，就开是准备当天的午餐。幸好我还挺能煮的。也因如此，我告诉自己，我得存我的第一个一万。我做到了！虽然这一万多以拿去交我大学的学费，我还是蛮开心的。因为有几个人能在两年里又在新水少过两千的环境下存一万？

我不是你们所说的 stingy，我也不想争辩。因为我知道我是为了我以后的生活、为了我将来的家庭而奋斗。我也不想以后于老公因为钱财而烦恼。一切从我开始。

只为了将来过得比现在好一点。。。 。。。

沒那麼簡單 - 黃小琥

这首歌说出了你的心声吗？

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴
尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛
總是不安 只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的浪漫

沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經

想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶 

不知它是否说出了你的心声 ，
可是它却说出了我的的心声。。。 。。。

The relation of Life and Installation process

I was super busy the last few days, having about 4 hours of sleep each day. This busyness somehow kept me away from thinking about some things that has been troubling me.

What am I busy with, some of you may wonder. I was busy editing a video for my coming D&D which is in another 18 hours time. Lots of unexpected incidents happened when I'm trying to publish the movie such as subtitles do not match with the video even though in the project it coincided and the inability to publish the movie due to various reasons.

But something strike my mind when I was publishing the movie and it just stopped at 96% , estimated time left - 6 mins. The status bar never moved even after waiting for 5-10 minutes.

What strike my mind was, isn't life the same?


Events in life is sometimes like an installation process in a computer.

 It sets you in a dilemma when the process get hang/stuck at 96% completed - whether to wait or to cancel and start all over again.
In the event that we decided to wait, we wonder how long should we wait? What if we waited and nothing happens and wasted our time waiting? If we decided to cancel and start all over again..... what if it hangs again?!?! This definitely decreases our morale. With all these failures, sometimes we can't help but think that maybe we should give up the installation program altogether, maybe it wasn't meant to be for us to use the program. Worse still, sometimes the PC crashes in the process and causes much damages before we can react to it.

As far as life takes me, I will try and try. Until..... I am totally feeling tired of trying.... to the extent of feeling hopeless. And if it really happens, trust me. I will give up totally and never look back. May not even try or touch it again.

Trust me. Been there, done that, rather a few times in my life.

Chace 满月了

Chace 满月了.

I went down to bro's house with dad. It's dad first time to bro's house. First time seeing Chace and first time seeing Jayr after they moved out.

Dad also carried Chace for the very first time but he was rather uncomfortable carrying him. He tried to carry Jayr but I think he was rather unfamiliar to him that he didn't really dare to get close to dad. Can see that my brother and I were trying to get Jayr to interact with him.

These are the photos: (didn't take photos of Chace.... although he supposed to be the "zhu jiao")

He smiled when I asked him to....

So cute right?

Yet another one

He jumped when I took this

Trying to open the Hello Panda that bought by my mom and delivered by us

He came to me when I asked him if he wanted to take photo!

Now I know which handsome boy to camwhore with!

 

Laughing his head off...

and then... alamak!

Running away from dad

Trying to see what else I delivered

Pulling the whole bag to my bro

A failed mission

Getting bro to take a photo for us,

Finally a photo of dad with Jayr

Dad trying to push Jayr when we were going home

A slightly clearer one

A closed-up of him

It feels great to be accepted and wanted by him! Let see when is the next time I'm dropping by. His motor skills are quite good for his age. He can kick and throw a ball!!! The next thing he needs to do is to talk! =)

2 Dates on the New Year Evening and Night

Watch here for entry of my date with Serene who just came back to holiday over the New year.

(Pic of me and Serene # City Hall TCC)

And my Midnight K Box session with Hui Hui......

To be posted soon.....